basically it wasn't showing the time anymore.
during the two weeks when she was in the hospital the clock started fading in and out--the numbers would get faint, disappear, and then show up again. and when my mom died the clock seemed to die out too.
but when i'd ask my mom for a sign very frequently the car clock would go on. but not just at *any* time. it would turn on at one of two specific times: either my daughter's birthday or my mom's birthday! after numerous times of this happening it would just turn on at my mom's birthday--when it was actually that time. it would light up with her birth date (month & day) and then turn off when the time changed to the next minute.
i swear if this happened once it happened close to fifty times!
the "signs" have really dwindled the past year--even the past two years. but for the first two and three years they were extremely frequent.
lately, i tell her to give me a sign and there are none. i wonder where she has gone. and why. i don't feel her presence like i did. i wonder if she decided to reincarnate for awhile. and in my mind i keep thinking she better be there to greet me when i go b/c she's the one who matters the most--the closest to my heart--and the one i could not stand to not be there putting her arms around me the moment i cross over. she's the one i'll gladly be leaving this world for in order to be with her again.