I'm something

[retrowire]

Not sure what. But I am.

I recently... Came out? To my wife about it.

She totally supports me and that's a relief. But, I seek a better understanding of me. And I thought I'd talk with DU's LGBT group about it.

I'm a male. I'm attracted only to my wife, a female BUT...

I feel an immense confidence and pleasure in thinking of myself as female.

I don't want to wear women's clothes... Or do I?

I don't want to put on make up. Maybe?

But I feel EMPOWERED when I think of myself as a female. I first noticed it on DU in fact. When a user referred to me as a she. I didn't care to correct them because I thought, "damn right I am." And I smiled and felt good about myself. It went on from there. I haven't lied and told anyone I'm female online though. I don't want to cause trouble.

Today though, I find myself obsessed with being pretty. Like, I am really really interested in hygiene and beauty right now. Excited about it even. I want to do my hair and clean my face.

So... What do you think of this? I'm not gay, I'm not interested in men. But I even like thinking of myself as a woman when I'm with my wife.

So there it is. It's... Out there. :/