Angst

[Droopy]

Having Second Thoughts About a Major in English


I’m just beating myself up.

You deserve to be beaten!
What made you think
you could handle this?
You’re no artist.
You’re no creator.
You’re just some dumb trucker.
So c’mon now, fucker!
Show us what you got!
Deep down inside
you know you cannot hide.
It’s all going to come out
about your miniscule imagination.
Now you think you can get by
as long as you really try.
Wrong again dumb trucker!
Full time steering wheel holder
is all you’ll ever amount to.
But you’ve got to try and make a change.
Well, we’ll see about that.
Foolish.

This is the first poem that I wrote for my poetry class. I was back in college again after seven years of being a trucker. This is a repost of the the same poem I had earlier on here. This time without the crazy characters for apostrophes.

[JitterbugPerfume]

1. self doubt---

a curse I also have suffered from

I had NEVER shown anyone any of my poems before posting "Sixty" I thought it was a sappy poem


wellI did show my sister, but I don't count her


hee hee

[Droopy]

2. I didn't think your poem was sappy

I thought it was really good. You ought to check out a few poetry publications and submit it. When I was in college the English department would publish a quarterly magazine with all kinds of poems and short stories in it. You didn't have to be a student to submit your work. Maybe you have something like that in your area.

[JitterbugPerfume]

3. thanks Droopy

<smile>

[ornotna]

4. I had to read this one a couple of times

and think about it. Your poem really touched me. I too am just a cog in the wheel, one of the grunts. Although I enjoy poetry, in no way, shape or form could I write it.



Well, maybe one day.

[Droopy]

5. Thanks, man

You just paid me the highest compliment that I think you can give a poet. It made you think. It made you feel.

Anyone can write a poem, man. I've had a person tell me that one of my poems was not really poetry because it didn't live up to their standards. To hell with that. Have you read any Charles Bukowski? There was a working man's poet if I ever saw one. Bukowski never graduated from college but he went on to become a great contemporary writer.

[ALago1]

6. Bukowski is an inspiration

He rebelled against the institutionalized sect of poetry and showed that you don't need to fit a certain mold to be considered a "good" poet, but rather just have to speak true to what's in your soul.

[ornotna]

8. Your welcome

I really enjoyed it.

And no, I had not heard of Charles Bukowski, till now. I just read three of his poems. I like. Thank you.

[KaliTracy]

10. the trouble with "standards" is that one can never "live up" to everyone's

standards -- you just have to be yourself. Too many people try to make the poem conform into something it's not -- to make themselves conform into something they aren't.

[KaliTracy]

7. you just did.

I had to read
this one
a couple of times
and think
about it.

Your poem
really
touched me.

I too
am just a cog
in the wheel,
one of the grunts.

Although I enjoy poetry,
in no way,
shape
or form
could I write it.


Well,
maybe
one day.

[ornotna]

9. Thank you

That's very cool. :)