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my daughter did this, too. she did spend some time in the hospital, but she was mostly willing to go. i don't wish to defend your folks, i don't know them. but i will tell you what it was like for me. i probably yelled at my daughter plenty of times when she wanted compassion. for me, all this was so incredibly terrifying. i lived in fear for several years as she went from one self destructive behavior to the next. at 15, sometimes staying out all night. flunking out of 5 schools in 4 years. hanging around with "strange" people. tats and piercings, mohawks and gauges, spiked collars and trench coats. obsession with kurt cobain, and other "dark" music. not things that i would assume were anything but self expression, but in the context of it all, hard to remain calm about. but the first time i saw the cuts, i started to really fear that she would kill herself. they were horrible. they covered her arms and legs. they were already scarred. i have never been so afraid. at the time, she was convinced that i hated her. nothing that i said or did, especially anything that i tried to do to get a grip on her before i lost her, was seen as anything but just being mean. several years later, now, she understands much better. not so much realized i was right, but got a lot of support and got mostly straightened out, and sees the difference. she is still a kind of a weirdo. i don't mean that in a mean way. she just still is collecting tattoos, and going to the gathering of the jugaloes every year. but she also goes to college, and has a job. we get along ok, because i am not terrified, and i guess neither is she. fear makes people do strange things. it is hard to be a mom of an unhappy kid.
peace to you. :hug:
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