I'm just OVER it ALL today ...

[FirstLight]

Maybe it is the gray weather & liquid sunshine....maybe it is the planets, PMS, grief, etc....

But today I am just DONE. I find myself HOPING for the final stock market crash and impending chaos, I welcome the burn-up on re-entry because at least then we can take ON this shift and make things happen rather than waiting for the next shoe to drop. I am tired of watching my friends suffer and lose their homes from NO fault of their own but that they cannot work. I am tired of seeing souls leave the planet en masse because they are choosing to jump ship before the shit hits the fan. I am mad that MY path is THROUGH thie fire....and that I have SO much work yet to do! I am tired of visualizing a "positive outcome" just to see that humans are selfish and will take food from a starving child's mouth before even CONSIDERING compassion. I am sick to death of war and the illusions and the futility of it all. I am sad that my own life is still so far from where I wanted it to be ...and that I may not even have "time" to have those things like a home or marriage that worked because there may not be "time" left to make it happen. I am sick of building on quicksand...with people, jobs, love, health, ....etc

So today, I am just DONE... gonna play video games and sleep and hope that I feel less frustrated tomorrow, or at least hope that I can find a way to numb it out for a while....

[northernlights]

1. hear!hear!

it must be in the air. because I'm having a hell of a time coming out from under the covers today.

[Kind of Blue]

2. Well, that's a good place to start.

FirstLight, I hope you play those games hard and sleep deeply. But, really, I hope that you can leave out the expectation of tomorrow's frustration. I wish you sleep well without the sadness of yesterday and what may come tomorrow. I wish when you awaken that you've laid some burdens down and literally are enlightened, see the abundance of Now that leaves you awed and gratified, as one Now moment leads to the next and you surrender to peace of mind.

Just my constant wish for you and how I see you from one who's been through it. Your pain causes me pain and my heart always cracks from it because I have no means to make your pain stop. I just wish you a permanent breakthrough or a progressive breakthrough that you can allow yourself to fully believe in that you've got everything you need right now for long lasting happiness; well, at least 85 percent of the time :)

[FirstLight]

3. Thanks KoB

I think that its part of the process, and most of the time I really DO try to stay on the brigh side and get the spiritual work done and get through the issues and clear it up... but today I am choosing to say "fuckitall"

:hug: thanks for your prayers

[Kind of Blue]

4. Okay, so I won't get so distressed when

I see your headlines. I'll just see it as a fuckitall moment :rofl::rofl::rofl::hug:
I had one yesterday listening to NPR about the sex abuse by rabbis and teachers of kids in an Ultra-Orthodox Jewish community in Brooklyn. It was a real banshee wail of a fuckitall moment for sure :cry:

You know, for me, it's not really staying on the bright side, but rather flowing on neither side. Just me, now, no pasting or futuring, getting done what I can in the moment or relaxing into no thing. A lot of good ideas can come from being neutral or just BEing with no expectations. Sometimes I don't even like hoping because I allow too much expectations that takes me off track. I lack a better word but always envision you in and at peace at your desk or in bed writing, releasing, and absorbing all around you that's good.

[FirstLight]

5. Here's a good piece...

My best friend & I were just conversing (she has alot of grief and death experience, and I just lost a good friend)) and she said,
"you know...we're human, it's what we do." (meaning grieve)

I percieved it as meaning -we process emotions-
Because THAT'S what WE do! we feel, we heal, we grieve, we learn we get mad and we learn how to own our space and hol our energy and grow and feel and make mistakes and fix them or not...it's part of ALL of it.

:rofl:but I am still going to take a rainy day nap!

[MorningGlow]

6. Ohh

:hug: :hug: :hug:

Never underestimate the power of a good solid nap (or video games) to help you gain new perspective on life.

I hear you, FL. I really do. It can be so freaking exhausting. :hug:

[omega minimo]

7. take a break

The Apocalypse will wait for ya :popcorn:



It's frustrating to have watched this approach to the edge of a cliff when there was plenty of time and opportunity for corrections. Now it seems it HAD to get this bad for people to wake up and maybe they still don't? That sucks, but at some point, that's how it (inevitably?) goes.

The hard part is realizing that people really don't learn from history and will go right back to their mindless behavior in good times that lets the bastards get away with their criminal behavior.

Obama said in his Congress speech 'In good times, people have better things to do than pay attention to public policy.'

Yeah :wtf: THAT'S THE PROBLEM!! :hi:

Don't forget, the one thing they can't take away is your dreams.
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=389&topic_id=5113019&mesg_id=5113019

[MagickMuffin]

8. You know FirstLight even has cloudy days

But there IS always a FirstLight, no matter what the Earth's atmosphere is doing. So, you're just experiencing a cloudy forecast. The sun will break through for you once again and the FirstLight will shine as brightly as it tends to do. :hug:

Most people don't like to go out when it's overcast, relax and enjoy the day ahead with no worries.


Namaste

:loveya:

[FirstLight]

12. awwww...coool thought

:hug: back atcha

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

9. I'll give you a hug and wish you peace

May you rest and simply find peace today. Don't think about the ills of the world, just look at what is happening right now and find the bit of peace that is always there, no matter how small.

[Missy Vixen]

10. Me, too

I keep telling myself I'll feel better tomorrow. :cry:

I am soooo cranky and just depressed.

This too will pass, right?

[FirstLight]

11. I sure hope so!

And now the day has gone so freaking fast, I don't WANT the kids coming home from school yet...I want to be alone! grrrrr!

[lib2DaBone]

13. "Building on quicksand"... exactly what I have felt.....

you came up with a great analogy.. it certainly is accurate.

"Building on quicksand" is what I have been feeling for the last 2 years... but it intensified these last two weeks.

I am Pisces..(and an empath) and they say, usually, Pisces are like the weather vanes of astrology.. they feel the weather fronts before they actually arrive.

What I'm I'm feeling right now is a great amount of unrest... it's going to break loose very soon. People can not move forward.. they can not move backwards... they are stuck (due to the economy.) Yet, when you loose your home.. you have to go somewhere? It is like an earthquake that must relieve pressure. The cosmos is saying move and our media and government is not letting people move. The stress level is reaching critical mass.

I have been feeling, the last few weeks, that my life has been negatively impacted by those who are still asleep.. who really don't know what is about to happen. I'm stuck in traffic behind sheeple who are continually asleep at the wheel. These Sheeple drift all over the road and run through red lights, almost hit and destroy me, none of it due to my driving? I go to the grocery store.. and I'm stuck behind someone on a cell phone who completes the whole transaction and never even acknowledges the clerk or salesperson. (the clerk just rolls her eyes because she can not believe how ignorant most people on cell phones can be.)

No, this is not a cell phone rant. I honestly believe it's a "sign of things soon to come" rant. I would like to be more positive.... but, as an empath, I feel something coming to which most people are in denial. And denial is not just a river in Egypt.

Keep up the good work Firstlight and thanks for the inspiration.

[FirstLight]

14. Time to get a bottle of wine & crawl inside!

Yep...that's it, I give, don't care if it is bad behavior to drown it all...

just had an accident in the kitchen and spilled chicken broth all over me... I hate cooking when I am hormonal!!!!

as soon as the kids are in bed and all is quiet, I can watch mindless bad TV and just zone out!!!!

[Sanity Claws]

15. Just wanted to join you and say me too

I got a migraine due to storm and haven't felt well all day. I hope tomorrow is better for all of us.

[liberalmuse]

16. A day later, I'm with you, but...

There are times we get low on energy and have just had enough. There is a lot of weird energy on the planet right now and I think we're just picking it up. We want to hope and be optimistic, but some days it's hard. I'm PMSing, and trying to shake a nasty infection I've had for over 3 weeks, and if I were god, I'd smite every Republican I've seen on my tv in the last month (except maybe PJ Rourke). Just know you're not alone. We will have brighter days and more energy. In other words, "This too shall pass". Sometimes it sucks giving a shit, but that's what makes you the beautiful person you are. We need more like you on this planet.

[FirstLight]

19. Thanks...and yes, mee too!

I love your line "If I were God I'd smite every Republican ..." try bankers and thos rich bastards who hoard all the money while people starve, too...

Here it is, Thursday and I have blown another week it sems. Though I DID make it to therapy, and I DID get some laundy done and managed to keep my sanity with a snow day and crazy kids and my hormones raging too...
so I guess it's not a complete loss. But I tell ya, this thick dense energy can GO NOW!!!

Time marches on and we get to keep giving a shit and trying the best we can to survive and make the best of the chaos. I will be glad when the "old world" separates completely, so that we can try the harmony thing in our New World for a millennia or so...!

[southerncrone]

17. Having similar feelings.

I am at the point of chucking it all. Job, husband, everything. Have even thought of leaving the planet, too, because it is such a wreck now. I try to stay positive, but my gut feeling is things are not going to get better for a LONG, LONG, time. Right now I feel like I'm doing good to maintain.

[dolphinsong285]

18. Sending you Light, Southern

Lately I've been going back to Matthew's Messages (on matthewbooks.com) to get spiritual nourishment. I started reading his messages back in May, when I felt even more dire. After some rough patches and a national election, things are feeling a little better. It's difficult when your personal strength is sapped and the burden of our fellow humans' and animals' suffering weighs upon us. With some reservations (maybe from previous president post traumatic stress) I feel that our current President now shares the burden. At my lowest point, I received a message to "Expect Miracles" It's hard to believe that mindset after personal loss and concern for others, but sometimes just saying and keeping those words in thought as an affirmation might help.
:hug:

[southerncrone]

20. Thanks, Dolphin. I think you're right about the

previous-president post traumatic stress syndrome (PPPTSS). I believe the nation is laboring under the heavy fall-out of it. Seems to be a poisonous fog that has encircled the planet.

I have noticed lately that things are happening that seem "out of the blue" & vastly change the path of events in my life, as well as others....some negative, but many positive. I think I will hold on to the hope of change & expect miracles. :hug:

[FirstLight]

21. FWIW

I have noticed that especially lately, the density moves out in a few days and the I have a few days of absolute gratitude and synchronicity...
perhaps it is part of the vibrational shift, the "pulses" we are feeling...

if we can hang through it all - perhaps the "waves" of density will recede and get smaller and then the gentle peaceful loving awesome higher voibration can wash over us...

[OneGrassRoot]

22. I agree with you and FirstLight....

(I just wrote a long post and it went poof!)

The density is SO VERY dense, I find. I think so many of us have wanted to give up....we're very, very tired. We've worked so hard setting our intentions, to the inner "work," and yet the energies have seemed to get much more challenging these last few years.

Yet we have hope. It seems that's the only thing that has sustained us for a long time.

And when one positive things happens, it gives us a little more energy...and a little more hope.

I agree about the PPPTSS thing as well; we seem to have PTSD of varying types that we are dealing with individually. We're often conditioned to be hesitant when something good DOES happen, as we've experienced the other shoe dropping way too often.

Yet hope does seem to spring eternal.

I'll join you in holding on to hope, and expecting miracles. :hug:

Here's to joy~filled "hopenings." ;) :toast: