Personal Revelation re: Merc. Retro in Libra

[Eurobabe]

I said to my mother a week or so ago, "Mom, I feel in many ways like I did after 9-11." (The situation is exactly the same, right now I am overseas, as in 2001). I'd say around mid-September I started getting these terrible pangs of homesickness, missing my daughters terribly, wanting to be home enjoying Fall, watching football games, having dinners on the weekends with my family, decorating my house, planting bulbs -- all the things that eventually led me to spiral out of control in late 2001, so badly so that I arrived in the US in January 2002 and told my poor husband that I was not coming back. He was upset, but supportive. It took us a year or him to find a job and move back. This time I've been equally as depressed, weepy, doubtful. Emotionally I have just been shot. Kaput. (My moon sign is in Mercury, Libra 25)

This morning, while lying in bed, I got to wondering how often Mercury goes retro in each sign. I thought, let me see where that bugger Mercury was in 2001, September/October. I turned to an online ephemeris, and lo and behold, Mercury WAS retro in October 2001...in LIBRA!! http://www2.bitstream.net/~bunlion/bpi/ephm/E200110.html

Same damn month, same damn feelings as this time, although Mercury has retro'd back to late Virgo this time (touching my Ascendant) I felt somewhat relieved that this might just be a temporary situation. Today I have felt better, it was beautiful perfect Indian summer day, and my husband and I went for a long 25mi. bike ride along the lake. There is so much to love about where I live, I don't want to abandon what I have worked so hard for (integrating, learning the language to get a good job, enjoying the beauty of Nature here).

Has anyone else ever had this kind of an astrological revelation?

[BlueIris]

1. Today I realized that during this Merc Retro, the key "balance points" in our relationships were

severely tested. Basically, whatever was keeping our relationships in balance got re-evaluated, stressed, or even taken away altogether. Very Libra. I think the bigger "point" of this transit was to encourage us to see which relationships are worth keeping and which relationships need to go, based on how well each fared when its fulcrum was broken.