What a difference a day makes.

[BlueIris]

Things are looking up. Sorta. Actually, today, like Tuesday, was bizarrely magical, and filled with things that felt like little signs for how to complete the process of moving toward a better life. It was like the Universe was saying, "Need a better job? Here is a hint about what the perfect job for you might be. Need a better place to live? Here's an ad for such a place. Need a better car? When you have the means, go with that one right in front of you. Also, don't park over there on that side of the lot. Here, let me kill all of the parking meters over there so you will know not to pick a space on that side...park over here, on the flat side. That way, when you totally forget to set your parking break, you won't roll backward into some other cars. Not saying it solved all of my problems, nor was it perfect, but at least it made me feel as if there are lots and lots of opportunities I can pursue ASAP if I would like to get to the "better place" I'm dying to occupy. I've experienced synchronicity before, of course, but it's unusual to have it happen consistently throughout the day like that. It was (mostly) great. I still have my concerns about how to get out of this last little tangle, and sadly, I feel like I have less human support than ever, but at least I have the cosmos. And I only have one month to go until I reach paradise! (October is, as folks like Karen Bishop have noted, going to be amazing, and apparently, for Taureans, it's going to be one of the best ever, which is something I feel coming, even if its specifics and purpose are still a little muddled for me, and even if I am worried that I won't be able to make the right choices in time to get everything I want to get done complete.)

[lildreamer316]

1. Blue..

I'm so very glad things are finally starting to gel a bit better for you. I too cannot wait for things to really get moving..they have finally started slowly, but it sure is taking awhile. I know it must be nice to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Oh, the relief you are going to feel when you don't have those emotional drains anymore!! I'm excited for you.

[BlueIris]

2. Thanks! I'm excited for me, too. Sorta. I...don't wanna

do the next part, since it involves some minor confrontations with people I...don't think I should have to endure confrontational interactions with. I'll put some prayers in the prayer thread for emotional support when it is time to face down the abusers and explain that I am leaving their b.s. behind, but for now, my only reluctance is...having to explain to mean people that they are mean and I need to get meanness out of my life.

Sigh. I'm also scared I won't get my book done amid all the chaos which is about to ensue. I really wish I'd been able to finish it before now, but am trying not to beat myself up about that. I gave that my best shot, and all I can do is get committed to the remainder of the composition process from here and really, really try to finish it as quickly as possible in case I have to relocate (I fear not having the artistic inspiration to complete it if I have to move out of my house, where I thought the whole thing up and which is suddenly really to my Muse's liking). Egh. That is such a bizarre conflict to be dealing with all of a sudden: love the environment, hate the people in it.

[MorningGlow]

3. WOO HOO BlueIris!

The wave finally hit you! I am SO glad! Things sure are different here at the end of the week, compared with the beginning of the week, huh? It's fantastic. So happy for you--here's to September and October and November--may things continue to get better for all of us.

:toast: :bounce: :headbang: :woohoo:

[BlueIris]

4. Okay. It's...getting weird.

Not saying the luck has dissipated exactly, but--my animals won't eat. My dog won't go outside. I've been getting weird cards suggesting that there will be unpleasant issues related to my homelife. In short, I started panicking about the future again, namely that I will get kicked out of my house by my nutty roommates before my book is complete and then it won't get done and then--!!

So, I was considering asking all of you if you were "getting" anything about that, and if so, what and what should I do to prepare other than continue with my plan to find a better job, and get my book done and...

But then I had a good day. Everything I needed was on sale, which is important since I am on an extremely tight budget for the foreseeable future. I managed to narrowly avoid hitting two people while backing out of parking lots today--one near miss happened in the parking lot where I rear-ended someone last April, because in addition to avoiding relationship (karmic) responsibilities regarding my ex-boyfriend, I was thinking about what I was convinced was the impending beginning of WWIII.

After having such a good afternoon, I started trying to figure out why I am having this sense of foreboding yet also a sense of triumph and hope, and newfound strength. I'd been asking the Universe since Wednesday to give me a sign about the immediate future, whether I was going in the right direction or not, and if I was, what changes I would need to make in order to really, really see the Path through to its proper conclusion. Tonight, after noticing that one of our cats, who appears ostensibly healthy, hasn't eaten for almost two days, and just wanders around the property staring at me, I went back inside to close a bathroom window and a frog, yes, a frog, FALLS on my HEAD. A little tree frog. Yes, we live in the woods, but its not like they just come bounding in here whenever they feel like it. I can't remember one ever coming in the house. My roommates and I have been talking for a while about how lucky frogs are. My male roommate even accepted a birthday present I gave him for his car, which was a little frog talisman, with relief and gratitude last March. It FELL on my HEAD. I guess that's my answer? Kinda? I think I kinda needed a big one because as I was just telling one of my guides today, I have an impossible time trusting that the Universe wants what is best for me, considering all of the bad things that have come before.

The frog, who actually is very lucky I didn't slam him shut in the window, is sitting under a collander (with lots of airholes) in my bathroom right now, while I try to figure out what to do with him. I think he should go back outside with the other frogs, mostly because I don't really have a place to keep him in the house, but...I asked for a sign and a FROG fell on my HEAD. I know, I know, I should be simply grateful, but at the moment, I'm just freaked.

[BlueIris]

5. Whew. Well, in accordance with my Saturn trine Neptune transit

that is beginning today...even if the "little problems" in the foreground of my life have yet to be solved, (no idea how long I have until my inevitable firing from my current "staying alive" job and no idea from where my next "store front" will emerge) I am now feeling the return of the kind of energies I enjoyed at the beginning of this summer. Actually, they're more like those I experienced during a "turning point" kinda moment that I've told some of you about, which happened for me this August 3rd.

Ah. That's better. I wish it were accompanied by more self-trust and trust that I will be able to figure out how to work with, not against these new energies that I feel just have to represent Universal Love, but I think that will develop in time.

Funny how it happened, too. I just asked for some answers about whether or not I was making any progress and in what way and gently at first, then in a flood, came the new information. Among other things: Uh, I'm a grown-up. I deserve safety, security and the right to pursue self-actualization as much as the next person. I've known that for a while, but now I've started to internalize it. Hopefully, I can now move into the New world with a more mature, contented outlook. That will be nice, as the feelings I've been having these last two months about the weirdness in my imbalance between a higher spiritual awareness and an, er, less evolved emotional state were kinda weird. Okay, very weird. And I think that's what I was so blocked and unable to access some of these energies for a bit there.

I mean, things aren't perfect now or anything, I still have some emotional scarring to address, I think, and I still have practical concerns to attend to, (I really want to finish my novel now) but it feels better today, for those who were concerned.

[I Have A Dream]

6. I'm so glad to hear that you're starting to feel better, Iris.

By the way, every time you mention your novel, I think that I'd so enjoy reading it when it's finished. It's got to end up being an amazing piece of work given how well you put things into words and how much of yourself you're putting into it. I ask the Universe to bless it with sacred energy and to give you a gentle, loving push to get it completed. (This or something better for the highest good of all involved.)

[BlueIris]

7. Aw; thanks so much for the kind thoughts.

I, too, hope the book winds up being as good as I have always sincerely tried to make it be, even during my more arrogant moments about its importance to my "image" (read: ego) as an artist. Sigh. Hopefully, now that some of those less than productive energies are out of the way, the composition process will go a little smoother. Thanks, again!

[SeattleGirl]

8. BlueIris, I love your frog story.

Seems your answer could not have been more obvious. I will continue to send good thoughts and positive energy your way, that things work out in the best way possible for you. :hug:

[BlueIris]

9. Yeah, that was great. And that little frog has set up residence

in a rhododendron bush right outside my window. Even though that's not really anywhere near a tree or other frogs.

[SeattleGirl]

10. How cool!

Your very own residential talisman.