Here..

[undergroundpanther]

But I don't think anything will feel better.There is too much pain and not enough help,not just for me but for humanity.

My eyes are burning. and I cannot do anything to help people see the enchantment they are in.
People love power and playing make believe about the damage abusers do. They love fantasies and will hurt people to act them out and will not wake up and stop the exploitation .The World is overrun with evil.

My life sucks,and I don't want it anymore. Life is a nightmmare. And I want out. But there is no way out.

Sigh.

[BanzaiBonnie]

1. I understand your feeling hopeless

I can only express to you that I know you are loved and there is always hope.


In my youth I had immense fears over the idea of nuclear destruction of the planet. I had grown up doing the duck and cover and it was ingrained that someday, perhaps there would be total destruction of everything on the planet.

In one of the first guided meditations I ever went through I saw a beautiful woman. She was far more beautiful than anything I had ever seen --- absolutely glowing. I shared with her my fears for our planet. She smiled with a gentleness far beyond human ken and held out her hands to me. In her hands was a brilliant spark of LIFE. The message I received was that no matter what --- no matter what changes come --- there will be life.


Undergroundpanther, there is love. You are the only one who controls what you feel.

[LiberalEsto]

2. Please call a friend

or a hot line, or your doctor, or a trusted family member. You sound depressed and I am concerned for you.

I have been through heavy bouts of depression in my life, and felt much as you seem to feel. But when you've worked your way through, it all seems like a bad dream. And there is more joy and goodness waiting then one can possibly imagine during a low state.

You can work your way through this. The world needs your insights and abilities.

[DemExpat]

8. I agree with your last line, LiberalEsto!

UGP can work her way through this, and the world definitely needs her insights, her mind, her heart, and her abilities.

Try to feel the love within and around you, even if through the Internet, dear UGP!

I visualize you getting through this dark period and coming out a fulfilled and peaceful person with much to give the world.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

DemEx

[Why Syzygy]

3. Hi. Welcome over.

I have been to the point of giving up myself. I really scared myself and other people because I was taking action to check out. I had to go to the hospital. I had been to hospital before, but it didn't seem to make a difference. The last time, something did change. I don't even know what. But the lost feeling went away.

The people in this forum are very caring and encouraging. I hope you find something that will help. If not, please do as suggested and call your doctor or someone to help you.

[Dora]

4. Hi, panther.

It's good to see you in here. I've enjoyed your posts in other rooms. I come to this particular room as a needed refuge from the always-simmering GD.

Have hope and faith that good lives are ahead for us and others. Let each breath carry you to the next. You give a lot to DU, perhaps we here can give something back.

Take heart, please. :pals:

[rumpel]

5. undergroundpanther

hang in there - you are making a difference


A PEACEFUL WORLD

From suffering comes great compassion.
Great compassion makes a peaceful heart.
A peaceful heart makes a peaceful person.
A peaceful person makes a peaceful family.
A peaceful family makes a peaceful community.
A peaceful community makes a peaceful nation.
A peaceful nation makes a peaceful world

~Maha Ghosananda, the Supreme Patriarch of Cambodia~

:grouphug:

[Delphinus]

6. {{hugs}}

undergroundpanther, you are not alone. I know it may feel that way, but you are not. I, as well as others here, stand with you in your pain and through your tears. Reading your words, hearing your anguish, I feel I have trodden through the same path you are upon right now. :hug:

[stellanoir]

7. Oh dear

I've posted this before but it really helped me in one of my darkest hours. Hope it helps you too.

BLESSING

"I send you light to hold you in love.
I send you light to heal you in love.

May you love, honor, and cherish the preciousness and uniqueness
of your own being and of each other being in this world.

May you see your own goodness and beauty reflected wherever you
look. May you be contented and appreciative of all life's
bountiful gifts.

May the splendor and majesty of your being guide your thoughts,
words, and actions.

May your pain and fear be transformed into strength,
understanding, and compassion.

May the shining light of your being radiate peace and harmony
wherever you are.

May you be suffused with happiness, joyfully celebrating each
day you are alive.

May you be abundant in all wealth and rich in generosity,
sharing your feelings freely.

May you be a soothing balm of kindness and a fragrant blossom of
love to everyone you meet.

May you be well whole and healthy.

May the great love and compassion of your heart embrace and help
to redeem the suffering of all beings everywhere.

May the inner light of your purity and perfection dissolve the
clouds of discord, despair, and conflict.

May the intelligence and wisdom of your infinite mind give you
clarity in a confusing world.

May you trust that you are loved, cared for and supported by the
infinite always.

May you possess the precious magic jewel of gratitude that
transforms all life into a paradise.

May pause for a moment each day to remember this blessing upon
you, and calling forth the full power and magnificence of your
own being, may you pass it on to all beings everywhere.

I send you light to hold you in love.
I send you light to heal you in love. "

[BanzaiBonnie]

9. Thank you stellanoir

That is wonderful.

[hippiechick]

10. I feel exactly the same way.

I wonder if this is the 'dark before the dawn' for those of us who are Spiritually inclined/gifted?

Each day gets harder. :(

[Cleita]

11. You need some professional help.

A therapist can help you a lot in working out these feelings and giving you a more positive outlook on life. All is not hopeless, no matter how you feel. I have lived long enough to know that there is always an end to sorrow and that it is often the means to seeking out a new path to a better and more fulfilling life.

[BanzaiBonnie]

12. Hello? undergroundpanther?

I'm hoping you may be feeling a bit better. I'm hoping you find some help to get what you need to feel there is hope.

When this world seems so harsh sometimes and that there is nothing but junk going on, it is absolutely overwhelming. There have been days in the last few years when I wanted to get outta here too. I can understand that. Sometimes one can be overcome by the pain and the selfish behavior of some people. But then you take another step on the Path and you see a ray of light. And you follow the light and there is more light and you can begin to come out of the shadow that drowns you with sorrow.

There is hope. Hope and our dreams are all we have sometimes when things are bleak.


undergroundpanther? How are you?

[undergroundpanther]

13. I'm around.

Been feeling better somewhat. Got some irons in the fire to try to get myself out of this mess.Takes time tho. My therapist has me on Klonopin now,I dunno what or if it's working yet. Sleep did come easier last night.

[BanzaiBonnie]

14. Good to hear from you

Sleep will help. Keep on keepin' on.