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Edited on Fri Nov-25-05 12:37 PM by BlueIris
About your state of mind--it's obviously filled with a lot of anxiety and pain about the war and all of the people suffering because of it, (the wounded soldier, the dead soldier, the woman angry about the soldier's funeral) including those whose rationality and integrity are warped by supporting it (the store owner). In my reading, it also seems that you have a great deal of concern about what the repressive, regressive rightward social shift in America (which has created the war) is doing to our female population (as reflected in the presence of the "cult" controlled women wearing clothing reminiscent of the 19th century).
I am also seeing evidence of conflicted feelings, possibly guilt-ridden ones, about the role your connection to material things, especially those you need to survive, plays in your life, despite what I think you sense about the negative effect that extreme obsessions with materialism have had on our government and society (the worst result of these effects being the greed that fuels the war). For instance, after your argument with the store owner about the war, you lose your car. You hate what it represents enough to separate yourself from it, but you still need it to function while you try to get away from the place you've gotten lost in. Even after you find yourself wandering in a town that may have once been commercially successful and prosperous but is now bleak and "seedy," and you have the run in with the cult, you still need your car and all the things in it. I also pick up on some frustration with your sense that even our sentiments and ideals, even the ones that should be most valuable to us as people who oppose the war, have been perverted by materialism--so much so that literally everything, especially intangibilities, are tied to material things (the bench, reminiscent of the rebellion of the Woodstock days, which your dream self wants to give to your brother for his bar, which is actually an antique, the way genuine rebellion seems antiquated to this world, and has an absurdly high price tag).
The end of your dream provides the best example about your deep fears over the material dependencies you resent, but which our world makes us tolerate in order to function--your car sinks, this incapacitates you, and the car, and everything in it is the first thing you tell your husband about, despite the other experiences you had and the fact that along with the car, sank the baby (representing the highest toll these social problems take--the souls and future lives of our children and theirs). The presence of antiques in connection to the symbols of materialism is interesting, too--your mind's recognition of the deep roots these problems have in our history perhaps? A longing for an antiquated, more innocent, past in which you felt less guilt about the impact of materialism on your life? I think it's curious that the war-supporting antique store guy gives you a key, and at the end of your dream, though you are still holding it, it is apparently useless, meaningless or indecipherable to you--as it appears to have been to him. I actually think the key is your dream's figurative clue to you that your dream has major signficance, a serious message to communicate--and since it's the key to the antique store, this message centers on issues about the negative side of our material world. It sticks out to me that the store owner (who perhaps should have been most concerned about this problem) didn't seem to know what to do with the key so he gave it to you, and though you might have been able to figure it out what it was for at the beginning of the dream, by the end of your ordeal, what you have been through appears to have stripped you of this ability.
I also see your clear feelings of helplessness about how to create positive changes that can help stop the war and repair the damages done to our world by it. Some people in the dream are away of this negativity and carnage but do nothing to stop it, (antique store owner) others share your views but seem as helpless as you feel, (the woman who had been to the soldier's funeral) and lots more seem totally clueless about everything (the women of the "New Covenant"). Even the police, representative of a government you should be able to rely on for support, are worthless to you in this dream, even mocking your predicament.
That really does sound like a yucky dream, now that I'm re-reading my post. Very depressing. Feel better!
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