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Without sounding too, um, presumptuous or self-aggrandizing or spotlight-hogging or whatever?
I have once again been smacked in the face with the vestiges of my own homophobia, and the reason I want to offer this apology is to (I hope!) validate the anger of this community, not just to whine about my own inadequacy, which I've already done at tedious length.
Someone said on the Skinner's latest Well-the-fuck-with-it-all thread that homophobia and being in favor of full civil rights for gay people are not incompatible and I'm here to testify that's true indeed.
I'd also like to acknowledge that homophobia is not incompatible with loving and caring about gay people and wanting them to enjoy full equality and full civil rights because homophobia does NOT mean "hating gays," which I think is at the root of a lot of sincere confusion as well as a lot of disingenuous snarkery.
Homophobia is not about "hate."
It's about an attitude.
It's about assumptions.
And the attitude and assumptions are tied up with the notion that gay peoples' humanity is somehow not as important as mine. That it's not such a big deal that the law of the land still permits them to be treated as second-class citizens. That the fact that SOME gay people live great lives, and SOME gay people don't show the effects of discrimination obviously, means that the discrimination just isn't that important. We're getting over it, right? Geez, be patient and all that BULLSHIT.
And it hits home in really subtle ways.
As in, when it impinges on my consciousness that some media figure I don't know anything about (but who is apparently Very Famous To Large Numbers Of People) indulges in a public anti-gay rant, and that here on Democratic Underground:
a) We still have plenty of people who think that there is some way to mitigate and/or defend the Famous Person (who probably Doesn't Really Hate Gays and therefore can't possibly be a homophobe, right?); and
b) Still have plenty of people who think that while the Famous Person was a homophobic ass, people Defending the Homophobic Person may Have a Point or are at least Not Homophobes Themselves and therefore should be allowed to Have Their Say because, after all, we're all about Freedom of Speech and Substantive Discussion of Attitudes and Issues here; and
c) Still, painfully, have plenty of people who believe that Discussing the Substantive Discussion itself, and pointing out exactly how it exposes homophobia right here on our dear DU, is indicative of how Whiny, Thin-Skinned, Victim-Mentalitied, etc. the gay community here on DU is, and oh, for Petesqueaks Just Shut Up About All That How-Discriminated-Against-We-Are Gay Stuff, already, didn't Obama just do something nice for you guys last week or last month or whatever?
And although I notice this, I fail to think that this is important enough to Stick My Oar In on, and point it all out, and yell HEY!! I've BEEN THERE! I'm still fighting with myself on this homophobia thing and I'm a fervent supporter of gay rights, and this is What Homophobia Looks Like and it doesn't belong here, dammit!!!
In spite of the fact that I find plenty of time and interest in other topics, some of them mind-numbingly trivial.
I'm sorry. I missed the boat on this one, and I don't think I'd be allowed to post this now in GD (where it belongs, really, because you all KNOW this already,) because let's face it, the foofooraw has gotten past the point where anything enlightening or productive is possible right now.
But I hereby promise that I WILL do better next time.
I'm just sorry as hell that you're all having to go through this weary soul-grinding discussion yet again.
respectfully, Bright
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