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bcause I couldn't finish my education, and the big sell was "byt the time you graduate, you'll be making SO MUCH, it will be EASY to pay off" but with an AA and a speckled past and 3 kids, I can barely stay employed, much less earn anything to save...
Since the loans are in default, they will also disqualify me for Pell Grants, so my only recourse is either a Govt training program or scholarships... which is labor intensive to apply for, but I guess if I know what I wanna do I can do it.
What sucks is that i have 2 very different skill sets: I can do Life sciences and biology, physiology, etc, or I can do english and arts and journalism. I have a background as a freelance journalist, but can't seem to get anywhere with the local news group, they are cutting left & right...and Education would be fine if I could actually get a credential, but there's that damn degree thing again...
I feel like I am going in circles - It is the ULTIMATE catch 22
can't get the career job to lift out of the gutter without the education, can't get the education without starving my family and even then I can't get a pardon on my student loans (part of the reason they went into default was the 3 yrs of abusive marriage where I had NO ability to take care of anything or keep it deferred...but there is no grace for victims of Domestic Violence, I even contacted the DOJ and the DOE about THAT!)
So I feel like I am doomed to be a receptionist my life and kep bouncing from bad job to bad job with no health care and no rom for family emergencies, etc... and I make between $8-10 an hour, and my hours are about to get cut to 10 a wek in January.
the whole thing makes me want to scream
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