I'm so fucking anxious I dont know how

[PCIntern]

I'm gonna get thru the next two days. I can't watch my Eagles, I can't go outside and throw a ball around with my kid, I can't read, I can't even do sorting or chores, I can't even stand reading the threads anymore - it's like I'm in some mode in which I have never been before. I've been on TV, on panels and interviewed, given speeches, award recipient thank-you's, was President of a Professional Club for a decade (don't ask...) and I've never had performance anxiety like this. I have two whole days work ahead and Trick or Treating to do and Have no comprehension how I'm going to survive this.

Why do I have the feeling that the safety of the Nation and of my family and associates and friends is at stake? What makes me think that we are in for a holocaust of some sort if this doesn't go our way? Is this a function of over-dramatization of the circumstances, or are things really this dire? With much or most of the country in virtually open rebellion against this crowd, what is going to happen on the 3rd if this isn't a clear win? What if he loses and, like Gore did ineffectively, starts fighting for his persona and his Party? What will the administration do? They're in power this time - not like last time when the Dems rolled over and played dead, allowing the Rethugs to ascend to an office of which they were not desrving. What will the militia do if called? What will be the reaction in the Street, as they call it in the Arab sorld? We seem to be becoming a Third World 'Democracy', it's what we used to make fun of in the 50's and 60's - a banana republic or a soviet-style 'election' where the winner is foretold by the winner. Each and every time.

Why, after living thru the Cold War and the Kennedy assassination, and Johnson and his war, and Nixon for Chrissake, and the Carter ineptitude, and Reagan TWICE and this guy's Daddy, and Bill's foibles and brilliance, why the hell am I so afraid of 4 more years with this crowd? Is it rational? Or have I sold myself a bill of goods and that on November 3, we're all just going back to work and it will be business as usual - we'll gnash our bloodstained teeth and try again in 4 years. Or is it going to be the apocalypse for democracy which we have held dear for over 200 years in this great country - maybe the end times are the end times not for the world but for democracy as we knew it from the history texts. This is what I' am afraid of, yes.

[La Lioness Priyanka]

1. i am anxious and have pms

and have run out of paxil....everytimes bush is on tv i cry...its not funny anymore!

[Moonbeam_Starlight]

6. Nope it's not funny

PMS and an election. NOT a good combo!

On Friday, I think I cried seven different times, usually for no good reason. Just exhaustion and stress.

But hey the Packers are up 17-0!!!!!!!

KERRY WINS!!!

[NightOwwl]

11. Ouch!

Double whammy. Can you go to a movie or something? The worst, most stressful day of my life (I had to put my 15 year old kitty to sleep), my doctor told me to get out of the house and go to a comedy. My hubby and I went to the first Austin Powers movie, and for two hours I was able to smile through my tears.

[Rainbowreflect]

22. Me too, PMS & election stress.

I hope my marriage survives the next couple of days.

[PCIntern]

45. Is your partner a Republican?

I don't know how those marriages survive...

[endnote]

48. I have PMS too. And I'm not even a woman!!

:D

[ElsewheresDaughter]

2. hey try writing a midterm paper

:crazy:

[PCIntern]

4. God help you...

What's your subject: Curbing anxiety Disorders in Overpoliticized Hypereducated Professionals?

If it is send me a copy!

[deadparrot]

3. You're not alone. I'm scared out of my mind.

I'm young, so I'm really paranoid about the draft issue, even though I'm a girl who will be attending college next fall. The idea of four more years of this is too awful to think about. I'm worried about everything: these "wars," education, health care, personal freedoms...I'm positive that we have a lot to lose with another four years of this crap.

[PCIntern]

8. Don't be scared:

there are always ways out of things. You'll see. I was trapped in the Vietnam era and wriggled out. Literally by the sking of my teeth. I was 1-Y with Braces on my teeth and then the draft ended.

[tedoll78]

5. I know..

I have an entire laundry list of housework to do.. and yet I'm sitting here, glued to AAR and DU and DailyKos and MYDD and.. and..

Gotta bathe the animals. Shampoo the carpet. Cut the grass. Windex. Dust. Go through bills.

Damn. I thought Sundays were meant for relaxing?

It's after noon right? Hehe.. :evilgrin:

:beer:

Not like I'm goin' anywhere today.

[SammyWinstonJack]

25. It's 12:00 somewhere

:beer:

[movonne]

7. I feel the same way..not sure I can watch the returns Tues... I want

to go to sleep and wake up to a Kerry Presidency...

[joanski01]

9. I was watching John McCain and

Joe Biden on Face the Nation. John McCain ended with a call to rally around whoever won and to stop the devisiveness. And I thought, just what are we supposed to do if bush* wins? Just let him keep having wars, stealing our Social Security, ruining the environment, pissing off the whole world???? Sorry, I also am scared silly.

[NightOwwl]

33. Fuck John McCain!

The same John McCain who says the tape is, "very helpful to the president" ?

Fuck him.

[PCIntern]

34. Yes...

if we're gonna have bipartisanship, let's have it with those Repubs who maintained some decency for the last 4 years. There aren't many but we'll find them and elevate them.

[aquart]

10. Can't sleep. Food tastes like cardboard. TENSE.

After 2000, how are we expected to feel? WE have the votes. THEY have the machines.

My ideal result is we win and Republicans are so sure they've been cheated that they ban bbv forever.

I know that I don't think vote tampering is a misdemeanor. I would prefer hanging but I'll settle for hard time. I don't think Republican dirty tricks are cute.

[Catshrink]

12. That you for articulating exactly how I feel!

I lost it a couple times at work last week because I was so keyed up. Thursday and Friday I forbid myself from watching any news or from DU (well, I did DU anyway). Rather than listen to the news during my planning period, I watched feel good movies. Toy Story 2 and The Goonies. Both non-political, both good triumphing over evil. I felt better. The Goonies was still running when my class started trickling in. They begged me to show the "truffle shuffle" and of course I did. A good laugh was therapeutic.

Two more days. I don't think I can stand it!

[karlrschneider]

13. If it's any consolation, I feel the same way...mostly because here in OK

the Chimp will win. I would literally give my left arm to be wrong about that, but...
:grr:

[lindashaw]

14. We had a discussion about this on another thread. A number of

us are feeling the same way. The only positive thing that comes to mind is "comfort in numbers." One other thought: Maybe we should be grateful that we have the sensitivity to project ourselves into this possibility of loss. It's a way of survival, actually. Part of us is already searching for a way to protect ourselves. Trust me, that is good. Everything in the natural world does this. Animals know when storms are coming, and even when they fret, they're looking for a place of safety.

Sorry, I'm rambling. I just don't think it's a bad thing to be nervous and wary. I wish I wasn't...*shrugs*...but I don't think it's a bad thing.

[Malva Zebrina]

15. You will survive

think back into your life and remember all the things you have survived in spite of overwhelming fear, despair and angst. You did survive and you will again. Float through that several times a day. I think we are more resiliant than we give ourselves credit for. Just do one thing at a time, if you can. Do the trick or treat when it comes. Do the playing with the kids when it comes. Live in the present for the time being instead of overwhelming yourself with future events and doubtring if you can do them. You will survive and survive intact--and smarter than you were before.

[goodboy]

16. say it with me now:

President KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident KerryPresident Kerry

Breathe man...

[LaPera]

17. It's hard as fuck!

I went thru this years ago...I put my heart and soul---time and money and every emotion into a Senate race in CA---The democrat I was supporting and working for every waking hour was leading in the state by a small but significant margin, until the republican money and media machine came into CA---did an effective smear and lies and distortion ---hit & run on my man.

And my democrat canidate lost by less than two points.

I was crushed and heartbroken. Devastated! Hated everyone and everything...

But I learned a lot from it...I learned how to give all one has, in many different ways, but you can and must consciously remain as emotionally detatched you possibly can.

Very difficult to do. However, I've learned how, I believe. (We'll see for sure on Tuesday night)!

I have put everything of myself into this presidential election...my heart & soul once more...But even though I still give my time and money I have began to slowly back off and protect my emotions.

Simply, because I know some things are just beyond my control...AND
I never want to feel that cheated and crushed again!

[PCIntern]

18. I had that with a girl once...

in colege. Same story. Exactly. Except for the Two points.

[LaPera]

19. WELL FUCK!!!...I've had this with women more times than I can count!!!!

And I still HAVEN"T learned how to detatch my emotioms when it comes to beautiful, sexy, intelligent wonderful, lovely and luscious WOMEN!!!!!

Absolute FACT!

[PCIntern]

21. Eggs-actly!

My grandMOTHER used to say (in Yiddish), "When the dick stands, the mind is buried in the dirt."

[madmax]

20. Everything you said

It's time for a :grouphug:

[acmavm]

23. I am so glad that I found this thread. I thought it was just me. I thought

I was being too paranoid, too obsessed. I'm so glad to see that there are others like me.

I see this election as a fight between good and bad, right and wrong, delusion and reality. I see this election as a fight for the American way of life as was intended at the time of the founding of our nation. I see this election as being the last chance to prevent our country from descending into endless wars being fought for the corporate bottom line. I see this election as being the last chance to save this country from becoming a facist state. I see this election as the last chance to try to keep our children from growing up in a society as corrupt and evil as the old Soviet Union. I see this election as a last chance, a fight, for a better way of life for our children than the bush* cabal has planned for them. I see this election as being a fight to save and preserve our country, not turn it into a right wing nation who's agenda is to enforce the Xtian fundamentalist way of life on everyone.

I see this election as the most important election since we declared independence from the tyranny of another King George.

I too have panic and anxiety attacks. They just hit me. I wake up at night because of this. Will I survive, no doubt. Will the quality of my life, such as it is, go to hell? I have not doubt that it will. What can I say about a party who's open agenda is the antithesis of everything I have ever learned or read this country should stand for? Shit, Tuesday seems months away.

[dirtyduck]

27. I'm with you...

Been in rolling panic attack mode for the last month. I think people that are paying attention realize how huge this all is. And the others are as oblivious as they always are.

Can't focus, can't do much of anything except DU...

[acmavm]

30. Me either. Seems like I spend way too many hours here. But this has

become a lifeline, a defense mechanism. Between my disgust with those who have no problems accepting the lies of this administration and those too damn stupid to understand what's at stake here, I could just scream. At least here, I find here island of intelligence in the swamp of delusion and ignorance.

A little melodramatic? Maybe. How I feel. You bet.

[heidiho]

24. I'm There With You - taking my meds and praying

although I'm not a particularly religious person, I went to church this morning and prayed hard for this country.

The country and the world can't take another four years of the Bush Cabal.

If God or Allah or Buddah or whoever is your higher power has any kind of control over it, we have to pray that the voters of this country find the wisdom to get rid of Bush.

Have a drink or two - it will help. I think we are going to take this, I just feel it in my heart.

[zippy890]

47. Just heard Kerry In NH - He's a winner

I'm nervous but feeling good.
BELIEVE

[flygal]

26. My hubby made me leave the house today..

We spent the whole day in the woods, walking, playing in the leaves. It was nice to leave politics behind. But, back home and straight to the computer.

[ocean girl]

28. Not only am I freaked about the election, but my Dad's having surgery

the day after for an abdominal aneurysm. He's 81 and barely survived The Battle of the Bulge in WWII with multiple wounds. He just wants to survive the surgery and wake up to a new president Wednesday morning.

Also, I just started a new job after 3 years of unemployment, so my stress level is off the charts.

Thank god for DU and yoga!

[PCIntern]

32. Good luck with your Dad's surgery...

I hope and pray that he has many more years ahead of him.

[ocean girl]

42. Thanks so much for the good wishes

My Dad is so tough that the VA told him that he'd be in a wheelchair by 1970 because of his war wounds. Not even close - last week he climbed up a ladder to inspect his roof damage from the hurricanes. He can barely walk but refuses a wheelchair. Tonight, he'll go trick or treating with his one and only grandson, Dylan, who's 4-years-old (my nephew). He won't be able to walk very far, but he'll be there. We lost my Mom last year to breast cancer and after a 50-year marriage, he was devastated, but he still gets up every morning with a positive attitude - he's an amazing man!

BTW, he's a hard-core, liberal democrat who already voted for Kerry.

[marew]

29. Another wreck here!

Can't sit down for more than 2 min. Back and forth between the TV and the computer. Listening to Air America. Nausea, stressed. Democracy is on the line. Going to a Kerry Rally in Tampa tonight.

[sampsonblk]

31. Same here - and getting worse by the minute

Wake me up on Tuesday, please!

[Gregorian]

35. Twenty twenty twenty four hours to go, I wanna be sedated...

Just be very happy that you don't know what I know. Because the state you are in now, I have been in for thirty years. I'm just now getting some company. Population and global warming ecclipse presidential elections.
Having said that, I suggest exercise and cooking. And college radio. Yes, The Ramones helped a lot.

[MassLiberal]

36. ditto

Another wreck here. I can't stay away from DU and have so much to do. I just feel like so much is riding on this election. I get teary when I see Kerry on TV--I just want so badly for him to be president. I want things in this country to get back to normal. I feel so angry and confused about all the people who still support Bush. Watching the Sunday morning talk shows didn't help--I know most of the pundits aren't on our side, but it's pretty weird to hear them sound so sure that Bush will prevail, when all the evidence on DU is to the contrary.

Hurry up, Tuesday!

[PCIntern]

38. As I said on another thread:

they have lied and lied and lied and what would make you think that they wouldn't be lying in their most desperate hour. the fact that Christie Whitman spouted the same old shit that everyone else spouted today should tell you something. Sun PM is for football - no one's paying attention at this very moment to us or to anything else other than the bread and circuses. I'm a big fan,. but this is the competition which is the Super Bowl of all time. At least as far as I'm concerned.

[oldschoolguy]

37. Gotta chime in here, too...

I haven't slept well in weeks, spend a lot of time reading these threads and other related websites, and am constantly thinking about next Tuesday.

Today is Halloween, I have three kids, and I'm hardly thinking about it yet. I'll get pumped when its time to get the costumes ready and all, but this country's decision will still be near the front of my mind tonight.

Thanks to everyone for posting the positive threads and pics lately.

[jezebel]

39. It's insane. I can barely sleep. I go to bed thinking about it, wake up

a few hours later and can't stay in bed. I need to check the news to see if anything has happened which may tip it either way.

[PCIntern]

40. There was a great scene in the book

"Moonraker" by Ian Fleming, wherein Bond is trying to stop a villain from cheating at Bridge, and stacked the deck against him. The villain's partner knows that the wrong lead could cost him thousands of pounds, and is terrified to lead the card. Fleming's description of Meyer being 'deathly pale' and that he looked like he could have a stroke at any minute is apt.

We had best better GOTV. It's our shot at success.

Strangely, my most RW patient is scheduled first on Wed. AM, as though I'll get any sleep, and I find it frighteningly ironic. It's either gonna be OK or a frigging nightmare on Elm Street.

[peacetalksforall]

41. I've read every message and my message may not bring comfort...but

I think it is true - all of you have vision and intellect and a love of country - we have what the country used to stand for when it succeeded in living up to the right interpretation of the constitution and list of rights. You have the ability to put it all together and can extrapolate if he and his gang aren't voted out.

We've learned that our number one enemy is in this country and that they go to unmeasuarable limits. We know the votes are there, but we don't know if they will be stolen by thieves who are our neighbors and their leaders.

There is one consolation - we can be reasonably assured, that only one side is stealing and that we're not dependent on the salary of a right wing propaganda network and partner in the thefts and attempts to steal.

So dark. But there is plenty of hope and expectation that our numbers are great.

It's a matter of authentic honor and integrity.

[zippy890]

46. Well said, and as we have learned through these times

there is strength in unity.
I have never seen the Democratic party so unified in my life, and I have been voting for 32 years.

[JennC]

43. woke up crying on Sat morning after Fridays Terrorist visit tape.

Im an exercise buff who misses a walk/run about 2 days a month. Nothing in 2 weeks. I finally got out the door this morning and it served to make my thoughts more crisp but not to distract me. I cried when I found out there was a Kerry rally in NH today and I couldnt go LOL! I am so focused on this election that I have become a antisocial nightmare. I wake up in the night and check the headlines.

Only a few more days folks. Peace.

[nostalgicaboutmyfutr]

44. Get a Grip, man!! Work on GOTV!!! eom

[endnote]

49. Don't you have a job????