Tonight the Abyss was there but I could not figure out if it was calling

[WCGreen]

out to me or if I was just acutely aware that it was going to always be with me and that I better get use to it if I wanted to have a fulfilled live.

I've been writing these updates for a couple of reasons with the first being the most obvious, to get these hard questions out from pounding around Out to me or if I was just acutely aware that it was going to always be with me and that I better get used to it if I wanted to have a fulfilled live.

I've been writing these updates for a couple of reasons with the first being the most obvious, to get these hard questions out from pounding around inside of me and let them out into the open so that I could share or just listen to feedback.

Feedback seems to be the most important aspect of modern life. We all want feedback, be included in the loop, or simply just wanting to be a part of something.

Therefore, that is why I started to kind of chronically what was happening to me physically.

The thing about COPD is that it means many things to many people. Like a catchall phrases gives substance to your illness but does not, in many cases, give you anything concrete to actually hang your proverbial hat upon.

Today was one of those weird days. The kind of day when nothing very dramatic or scary came at me and yet my anxiety levels kept building. I don't know about you but anxiety builds across my chest and then just lays there with an attitude like okay buster, now what.

I have been talking t a lot of people over the la several days and that in and of itself goes a long way for me at least since I know people are out there who do care enough about me to want stay in my health loop.

Later today, they will be making decisions about my care for the next five to ten weeks, where I should be and how much care I will need as I slowly regain strength.

I am now at that point where I know that I am not going to completely comfortable by myself and that he simple anxiety can cause huge problem for me.

Anyway, it's been a long day, a long night and a day that had change written all over postmarking that declaration can go a long way toward learning how to cope with what for many is the biggest change in their Livet, right from the start.

I am debating whether to start writing a blog about living with COPD on a daily basis. Not Some kind of clearing house but a way people can click on a site and realize that they are not alone and that there are literally thousands of people all around you living with the same condition you are dealing with now.

To me, that first step toward acceptance is realizing that you are not unique and that there is probably someone out there who can help you by just talking you through tough patch.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. You are living on the edge of the Abyss...

And because of your illness, you are much more acutely aware of it than the rest of us. But all of us live on the edge of an Abyss...

We just don't know it. And maybe for us, the slope down is a bit less steep...As I get older, I too see the edge.

Feedback is important too...it helps you see where you are, and it lets you know a bunch of us care about you.

I applaud your intelligent approach to your illness. By keeping your wits about you, you have probably extended your life...

You will never be completely alone...there will always be folks around who love you and who will be there for you whenever you want them.

I look forward to your blog!

I know it's late now for you...Sweetest of dreams, Chris...

:hug:

[enigmatic]

2. Write the blog, Chris

Let me know if you need any help in setting it up :hug:

[auntAgonist]

3. Chris I hope you're resting well.. write the blog

you will have so many followers, people who are interested in your well being.


I hope the day brings good reports and sends you on a healthier path.

:hug:

aA
kesha

[theNotoriousP.I.G.]

4. The blog sounds like a good idea

your writing throughout this ordeal you are undergoing has been so raw and personal yet you've kept a sense of humor. I think writing a blog to help others know they are not alone and having a two way dialog with others suffering from the same condition as you would help a lot more people than you know. You have a lot of insight and wisdom to share Chris. I always come away from your posts feeling like I've learned something about the human condition.

[pscot]

5. I understand that acute awareness of our own mortality

I had a near death experience about a year ago, and I've been in and out of hospitals for the last 14 months. Given my age and the state of my health, I no longer make long range plans. It really helps if you can keep your sense of humor. It buoys your own spirits and makes it easier on those you love. Sometimes it's hard to do. Hang in there. Good luck.

[Pool Hall Ace]

6. Another vote for the blog.

In January, I had not one clue that I was going to go to bed one night and wake up in an emergency room just a few hours later. The blog will be healing for you, and helpful for others grappling with COPD. :thumbsup:

[Whoa_Nelly]

7. hey

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