Every indication pointed toward being released tomorrow.

[WCGreen]

Then it happened.

At about 11:15 AM I was starting to get a little agitated. I know the dedicated staff and people here at Fairview Hospital are doing the very best they can. In addition, compared with the personal I remembered encountering back in the days when I was still drinking (twenty-five years ago), well, it is a different breed of people, top to bottom. You were almost treated with a certain amount of contempt leveled at you for allowing yourself to get sick.

Anyway, that rarely happens anymore and I of one am glad.

Many people, who end up in hospital today, are really just there through no fault of their own.

However, as far as my situation is unfolding, my life is changing and I will not be going back to things the way they were. This has been incredibly easy to get my hands around because now I can claim Doctors orders are apparently a good enough ticket to get yourself well.

The blood from my chest comeback vigorously today and I honestly thought my ticket was about to be punched. Funny, I did not feel all that concerned abbot death but I was concerned that I would be putting my wife and many others through some particularly rough times.

I was supposed to be heading home tomorrow but that looks very unlikely at this moment.

I may be sent back to the rooms I found myself in 2004 when I was sent to Grace Hospital to recuperate out of the sterile medical environment.

This on again off again danger non-event roller coaster is starting to play havoc with my internal psyche.

It seems as if there never really is a dull moment but I guess that is life for the majority of people and since the people have never had to deal with death and chronic disease will health ever have to let doom set up shop.

I really think that if I can get passed this continuing episode, I will be in a far better place. My health seems t have actually taken a turn for the better which, btw, almost never happens to people like me.

So I say peace out to all of those following the ups and downs of my disease.

[crim son]

1. Chris,

Peace to you, too.

You need to get better and go home. You've experienced a setback but as you say, this is an episode and it will pass. It strikes me that your psyche is responding as any sane person's might but having said that, hang tough; this is just another rough spot.

Always thinking of you, WCGreen, and sending up another prayer.

[Forkboy]

2. I have cancer and I still can't imagine what you're going through.

But you seem to be handling far better than I suspect I would, and with far more class than I could muster up.

Best wishes to you and your family.

[abq e streeter]

5. I somehow didn't know about this...I pray for for your recovery as well

[CaliforniaPeggy]

3. The roller coaster just doesn't stop, not yet anyhow.

But it will.

And you will get well, and go home.

I know it.

But still, DAMN.

I am here for you, and I always will be.

:hug:

[abq e streeter]

4. at a loss as to what to say beyond that you're in my prayers, and will be as long as you need em

[grasswire]

6. If I were in your vicinity, I'd be out in the hallway...

...bugging the nurses, bringing you this and that, just sitting with you though I don't even know you, and so would CalPeg and so many other DU-ers who wait with you for your discharge. And with all of us wimmen mulling about in the hallway, Mrs.WC would begin to wonder what goes on here in the lounge .....

Oh, just get better, friend. Better that than for Mrs.WC to find out about all of us.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

7. You got that right!

I've been lucky enough to meet both WC and his lovely wife!

Some days I actually hate living so far away.

And this is one of them.

:(

[enigmatic]

8. All the vibes I can send are on their way

:hug:

[auntAgonist]

9. Continuing to think of you as you heal Chris.

Get better :hug:

aA
kesha

[Pool Hall Ace]

10. Gosh, I hate setbacks. :(

But it's just that, a setback. Stay in the present moment, Chris. This will help you to get well enough to be discharged. Then before you know it, you will be back in your own home, your own bed, wearing comfy clothes and not hospital gowns. Then you can continue your healing process with your wife right there by your side.

I wish I were close enough to stop by. But remember all of us who are there in spirit. :hug:

[lizziegrace]

11. Keep me posted

I'll see you this week - promise.

:hug: