I Should Go To Bed

[SPKrazy]

I'm doing better than I did last night

no 3 am emails... but its not 3 am

it's time to go to bed

i fight sleep

even when it is handed to me in the form of a pill

my brain says hey, what's this, why is it making me bleary eyed.

Of course I've also got music playing, the puter on and going and the lights on.

Guess it is hard to make that a sleep inducing environment.

I had to "edit" the 3 am emails because the last sentence made no sense.

Actually the emailing at 3 am of an announcement to friends that I have't talked to in a while that we're getting divorced is a little strange.

One person I sent it to said they were glad that I edited it and resent it because it was "creepy". They were sorry I was under stress and asked what I was doing up at 3 am. Seemed like a rhetorical question to me?

I could start writing what I feel, but instead, I'll just write that I'm here for a moment or two, going to bed

:grouphug:

I will say this... no I won't.

Well maybe I'll say this... don't expect that there won't be one hell of a fight if I a put in a position of not getting an acceptible agreement on custody. All bets are off at that point.

that's all

[bixente]

1. Sleep

It is a problem for me at times. Sometimes, while I'm tired, I'm enjoying the day/night and am reluctant to give it up for unconsciousness. Other times I embrace sleep with open arms.