The BlueIris Semi-Nightly Poetry Break, 1/17/08 (warning: very graphic language)

[BlueIris]

"Terminus"

Here is a piece of required reading
at the end of our century
the end of a millennium that began with the crusades

The transcript of an interview
between a Red Cross doctor
and a Muslim girl in Bosnia
twelve years old
who described her rape by men
calling themselves soldiers
different men every night one after the other
six seven eight of them
for a week
while she was chained by the neck
to a bed in her former schoolhouse
where she saw her parents and her brothers
have their throats slit and tongues cut out
where her sister-in-law
nineteen years old and nursing her baby
was also raped night after night
until she dared to beg for water
because her milk had run dry
at which point one of the men
tore the child from her arms
and as if he were "cutting an ear of corn"
(the girl's words)
lopped off the child's head
with a hunting knife
tossed it into the mother's lap
and raped the girl again
slapping her face
smearing it with her nephew's blood
and then shot the mother
who had begun to shriek
with the head wide-eyed in her lap
shoving his gun into her mouth
and firing twice

All of this recounted to the doctor
in a monotone
a near whisper in a tent
beside an icy river
where the girl had turned up frostbitten
wearing only a soiled slip
her hair yanked out
her teeth broken

All the history you've ever read
tells you this is what men do
this is only a sliver of the reflection
of the beast
who is a fixture of human history
and the places you heard of as a boy
that were his latest stalking grounds
Auschwitz Dachau Treblinka
and the names of their dead
and their numberless dead whose names have vanished
each day now find their rolls swelled
with kindred souls
new names new numbers
from towns and villages
that have been scorched from the map

1993 may as well be 1943
and it should be clear now
that the beast in his many guises
the flags and vestments
in which he wraps himself
and the elaborate titles he assumed
can never be outrun

As that girl with the broken teeth
loaded into an ambulance
strapped down on a stretcher
so she wouldn't claw her own face
will never outrun him
no matter where she goes
solitary or lost in a crowd
the line she follows
however straight or crooked
will always lead her back to that room
like the chamber at the bottom
of Hell in the Koran
where the Zaqqum tree grows
watered by scalding rains
"bearing fruit like devils' heads"

In not giving her name
someone has noted at the end
of the transcript that the girl herself
could not or would not recall it
and then describes her as a survivor

Which of course is from the Latin
meaning to live on
to outlive others

I would not have used that word.

—Nicholas Christopher

[Tuesday Afternoon]

1. K&R

by god BlueIris.:applause: You've done it again.:yourock: Everyone needs to read this one. Amen.

[BlueIris]

2. Hey. Thanks. I agree

that this one should be read by many.

[BlueIris]

3. Kick.

[Westegg]

4. I punched the nearest wall at line 10...

..and started writing a post about how I can read things like this, while my wife cannot, because I have some lofty, intellectual goal about "understanding" the evil that is possible and how we should explore the extent to which it exists in all of us, and my wife is just putting her head in the sand, etc., etc.

Ah, fuck it. What a liar I am. I didn't read past about line 15. My wife's family escaped from Germany in the '30s and '40s, with the exception of those who didn't escape and were murdered. My family never had to escape from anything.

Okay, I've now read past line 15. I forced myself to.
What can I say? Guilty.
I hate myself for being a part of it.

[BlueIris]

5. I'm surprised no one has posted something similar to this yet, Westegg.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

6. You are NOT guilty of this, even though you are a man...

Do not blame yourself for the actions of other, evil men...

You are a good and loving man...

Do not hate yourself for being such a man...

Your goodness provides a counterbalance to evil men...

:hug:

[Westegg]

7. But you get my confusion, right?...

...because at the end of the day, I struggle to discern the ways in which I am different from the "ordinary" men who do evil. Are not war-time atrocities invariably commmited by the ordinary soldier who's fighting for the powers-that-be?

I don't ask that as a question I expect you to answer. This is just the kind of stuff I confound myself with regularly. I am, at least, a decent man, and I suppose I'm not alone among decent men in my daily efforts to fathom why and how the terrible, murderous, shameful things are done. I think I may have a gimpse of the answer. It shames me.

[BlueIris]

8. Kick.