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Ars Poetica, Or Keeper-of-the-Water
First my father killing me softly with his Roberta Flack album. Now my son killing me softly with his Fugees CD. On my shoulder a carcinoma that will eventually kill me-- will eat my flesh, as I eat yours. I bit hard, sucked hard, not to mark you as my possession as the rancher burns his ranch insignia into calves-- but to try and ingest, to take into me that which cannot be eaten. Outside my bedroom window the tiny clawed feet of birds are slipping on the ice in the cement birdbath like the elderly couple who have not skated in half a century. The birds peck and peck, but the ice remains an impenetrable obstacle to thirst. I can see why lovers commit suicide together. And why you enter me with such abandon-- a blind man's stick tap, tapping resolved to the knowledge that death is always only a foot in front of him. At any moment the cane may fail him and he may fall into the deepest, blackest well. Excuse me un momentito, while I boil some water to pour on the ice. Bullshit-- you're not going to take the time to boil water when it runs pretty damn hot right from the tap. I admire the couple for strapping on those blades after all these years. At least they have each other to hold onto. And one can always drive the other to the hospital. I feel like Charles Bukowski: I eat small pork sausages with my hands, wipe the grease on my pajamas, speak about the opposite sex with scorn and I'll never be taken seriously by academia. Blame it on the intoxication of paralytic poisons-- the seduction of lights-out love songs. Blame it on Dean Young. And the distraction of hundreds of birds outside my window, and my full-time obsession as the keeper of their water.
Joanne Dominique Dwyer
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Joanne Dominique Dwyer lives in Santa Fe, New Mexico.
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:hi:
RL
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