Okay... well...

[Haole Girl]

I put an avatar back on my profile. Not the one I really liked, but a generic one that somewhat represents one of my passions. I've deleted my entire photobucket account, so it's going to take me awhile to upload pics again.

I don't know what I'm doing. Yes, I am hopelessly addicted to posting here... and receiving the "validation" (as a good friend of mine called it) I think I get from feedback on DU. It doesn't help that I live in Texas, and it's primary season, and...well... there are not a lot of politically like-minded Democrats here. :-(

One friend of mine told me I am an emotional masochist if I come back to DU. My ignore list is HUGH!!!1!!! It has almost 80 DUers on it...just for blocking PMs. What I'd like some of you to understand is this-- if you are blocked by me, it doesn't necessarily mean I don't *want* to talk with you, or message you, or befriend you, or even just touch base. I would love to feel like I could handle that. But I'm afraid to open up myself to further pain. There are many people on that blocked list I would really love to talk with, but I don't want to get close to anyone - ever again - in cyberspace. Ever. Still, I miss you guys when I leave here. Does any of this make sense?

What a strange place to be in, mentally, huh? So, what I guess I'm saying is I'm back. Again. I think.

:scared:

[MrCoffee]

1. good luck

i don't know your history with DU or anything, but i wish you good luck with whatever it is you're looking for.

and i know all about the lonley Texas Dem syndrome. lol. it sucks, but on the bright side, i was in houston over christmas, and saw far fewer "W" stickers on the SUV's than last time i was home. maybe it's getting better there.

[Haole Girl]

4. Thank you!

The "W" stickers are coming off (how ever slowly) but there is an awful lot of talk about Huckabee. *sigh* I hope people realize Mike Huckabee is not as harmless as he appears. After all we've been through the past almost 8 years, you'd think people would come to their senses. grrr

Anyway, thank you again! :hi:

[av8rdave]

17. I'm glad you're back!

FWIW....Huckabee scares the %$#@ out of me!

[Haole Girl]

18. Thank you

He scares me too.

:scared:

[Madrone]

2. Well, I for one am glad to see you.

:D

I hope you're feeling better - and it seems as if you are. I'm looking forward to you feeling 100%.

[Haole Girl]

5. Well..

I am feeling better, thank you.

:-)

[Rosemary2205]

3. Damn

that must have been some fight............

"once burnt, twice shy"

Anyways, I don't know you at all, but I do understand your post - I don't know you at all but I hope the day will come when you feel safe enough to let some of your old friends in again. -- Everyone needs um.........

:hug:

[Haole Girl]

6. Yes, one hell of a fight.

But I don't want to, and really shouldn't, go there.

Thank you for your kind reply. Someday, I hope, I will feel strong enough to let some of those I've blocked back into my life. Thank you. :hug:

[auntAgonist]

7. If you have me on ignore ...

I'll never be able to tell you how much I care about ya :)

Just take good care of yourself and take breaks once in a while !


:hug:

aA

[Haole Girl]

9. Thank you!

And, yes, breaks are a good idea. I see that now! :hug:

[bicentennial_baby]

8. Why don't you just block all PMs?

:shrug: Seems easier.

[Haole Girl]

10. Well...

..there are a couple of people I'd like to help. Even though I am not really qualified, I like to think I help them when they are in emotional pain. That is the main reason I decided to use the block function... except for just 2 or 3 people who still need me. I think. Though I haven't heard from one of them in awhile and I am very worried.

[bicentennial_baby]

11. Gotcha...

Well, good luck. I don't take offense at being blocked.

[Haole Girl]

12. You shouldn't take offense

You are in good company. :hug:

[AggieGal]

13. Hope you feel better soon

Sometimes it is good to step back and take a break. I do that on other forums when it seems like I am on them for hours just about everyday. A good clue for me is when someone says "Weren't you here when I went to bed last night?"

PS. I think remember your avatar pic. It was the pretty one with the water and the trees in it. Not really helpful in knowing exactly which one it was, but that is what I remember.

[Haole Girl]

14. Thanks!

Yeah, that would be a sign to step back! lol

My avatar... sigh... it was a sunset pic of Hawaii.

Maybe I'll work on another one sometime. I know the one I have now is boring in comparison.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

15. My dear KC2...

I hope things will get easier for you...

I see I cannot PM you, and this makes me a little sad...but I do understand...

Do what you need to do to take care of yourself, OK?

:hug:

[Haole Girl]

16. Hey....

I just didn't feel like answering a whole lot of questions... really!

I'm fine... and I do take care of myself.

Thanks.

:hug:

[KG]

19. you were gone?

[Haole Girl]

20. Not really

But I thought about it! lol

[applegrove]

21. Sometiimes when we are very hurt it takes a while to trust again. Then

all of a sudden you realize you can do it. Give it some time. But believe there will come a day when you have been given enough time to heal - that you can trust people again.

[malta blue]

22. hey sweetie...

glad to see you....

:hug: