I am stressed out of my mind

[alarimer]

It is 130 in the morning and I need to be up in a few hours but I can't sleep. I have so much work to do (working on a Masters in fishery biology). I need to defend my thesis in February or early March because that is the deadline for May graduation. I work fulltime at a job that is kind of stressful too (more because of issues with some of the people I work with, not the work necessarily).
I just finished working on a spreadsheet for my professor who wanted me to work up some data into a form she could use for some other analysis, one that should shed some light on my own. But it took me two whole days to do that, largely because I am not adapt at Excel and the data I use has to be in a certain format for my own analysis, which is not what this other analysis will use. The details are not important anyway. Now I have another one to do for her but I can't figure it out. I will eventually but it is taking time away from my own work (which is nowhere near completion). I have to present in a month and I haven't even finished my results section yet, much less the conclusions.

And I am supposed to go in the field tomorrow but I do not want to, tired as I will be. My coworkers think nothing of arriving (late) at 9 am, getting a leisurely start and not be on the water until 1130 or 12. When we finish what we have to do, we may not get home until 6 pm. I am so tired of this crap. I need to be home earlier than that. I don't care that they don't care what time they get home- I do. I have stuff to do.

I am supposed to go to my sister's for Christmas. I am thinking of not going. It is an entire day's drive from here and I doubt I will get enough peace and quiet there to get anything done, not to mention two entire days wasted on the road. So I want to cancel my Christmas plans, but I am sure everyone will be pissed if I do that. But goddamn it, I do not want to go.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

1. My dear alarimer...

Stay home on Christmas...

It will be a chance for you to decompress, and do what you need for yourself...

And that work for your professor?

Do you absolutely have to do it?

It sounds to me as though you would be a lot happier if you could shed it...

Do you have to go into the field?

Start saying no to all these demands!

Take care of yourself...

I'm sorry there's so much weighing on you tonight...:hug:

[alarimer]

2. Thanks

I think I can postpone the stuff for my professor. But there is nothing much I can do about my job. I will talk to my boss today and see if I can take Wednesday off. I was only planning on taking Thursday and Friday but I think I need Wednesday, at least to get ready for my trip.