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A friend of mine, who I've had a major (unmentioned) crush on since I met her, just got engaged to her boyfriend.
Another friend, who I'm also crushing on, knows about my crush on her (because I told her), and is emphatically uninterested, because she's "looking for someone more like her father." Also, she's graduating next week, going off to grad school, and I'll never see her again.
A scrawny little dude who I want to make out with is a prude.
Anyone I know who's intelligent enough for me to be interested in is either taken, a lesbian, or not interested in me. The only three girls (I don't go too much for guys, the one above is an exception) I can think of who I could even have a chance of coaxing into being interested in me are far away.
One's in Maine, one's in Georgia, and #3's over in Orlando, an hour and a half away, and I have no car.
I have no social skills, which means no party invites, and my current longest-lasting relationship totaled 2 weeks before I broke it off-she was crazy clingy, and looking for something long-term, which I have no experience with.
To top it all off, school's killing me right now (finals), and I'm seriously worried about 2 of my classes (the other 3, I'm doing fine-a B and what will be an A or a B). If I flunk either class, I'm going to have to either 1: break the news to my dad with my therapist present to protect me, or 2: cut off one of my pinky fingers to divert the inevitable explosion. Dad's got problems with repressing his anger over everything until something really provokes him, and he directs a couple months of stored anger at the provocation. If I flunk a class, I'm afraid that will be catalyst enough that he'll beat the shit out of me (something he's never done before, by the way). By chopping a finger off, I might be able to divert his wrath.
Mind you, I'd much prefer option 1 (talk it out with my therapist there), but I'm afraid that if I flunk either/both classes, the school might notify him before I can get an appointment scheduled.
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