I think I need a drink or a vacation to better times ...

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

I am starting to think of a plan to sneak my mom out of the house and into a new house with only her and I. About an hour ago my mom just had a really bad headache - she was afraid ,she thought it was another aneurysm. It was a pain level of 8-9. She told my stepdad to call my aunt so that my mom could pray with her over the phone. He did'nt want to do it so he told me to do it instead. My mom was in pain. This is not about me but I am still in shock and this is the first time since her aneurysm that she had a really bad episode. She prayed with my aunt(her sister) over the phone. I was sitting beside her and my cell phone rung on vibrate again. I walked out the room to answer it and as I was walking out he got stupid and said " you don't need to call anybody " I told him I was not calling anybody my aunt called me back. I did'nt yell - I did'nt scream. He said something stupid as I was walking out. I was talking to my aunt in my room and she was asking me if my mom took the medicine against seizures. I was trying to talk as low as I could so I went outside - my aunt told me to call my mom's doctor. I did. But I told my aunt how I am so sick of him yelling at me when all I do is HELP ! I work from 10pm to 6:30 am and when I am home I don't sleep because I am giving my mom her medicine. Somedays I have lost pay to take care of her. He is always saying something stupid like we are supposed to just let her sit in pain like that. I can't stand this shit !I can't go off I have to focus on my mom but I am so sick of his ass! I am taking care of my mom because SHE IS MY MOM !!!!!!!!!! She took his broke ass in and he took her for granted. Like I am supposed to not be sad or down when my mom gets sick. I am going through PTSD I think - I called a counselor because I need someone to talk to. Someone needs to tell his ass off that if he does not want to help he needs to get the hell out. When I go to work I am so worried about her. I don't care about anything else except her. Its like he is trying to keep us from her (my family and I) - we lift up her spirits. All he does is nothing !Its like he is yelling at me on purpose to make her think that I am doing something wrong - but I am not. I have to be strong for my mom.I am going to a psychiatric counselor tomorrow because my mind is just poof. Please pray for my mom and I.

[Blue Diadem]

1. Oh CP of course I'll keep you and your Mom in my prayers,

Make sure to take care of yourself too. You need to get some rest so you can take care of your Mom. Is there any way you can contact her Dr. and ask about a visiting nurse so you can get your sleep during the day?

[I Have A Dream]

2. I will pray for your mother and you, CarolinaPeridot.

It sounds like an awful situation. :(

[Writer]

3. Oh, Carolina, you most certainly are in my thoughts...

Here is a big hug for you :hug:

And a therapist can help. I'm so glad you're seeking professional support.

We'll always be here.

On edit: Keep your faith, m'lady. That has helped me through some of the worst times in my life. Maybe I can tell you about it sometime.