Have you ever just wanted to scream

[reyd reid reed]

as loud and as long as you can?

What did it?

[datasuspect]

1. the realization that my life is shit

and that i am continually digging a very large hole and have not learned the very first lesson of hole digging 101: stop digging.

or it is akin to tripping over the same crack in the sidewalk everyday and refusing to just walk over that crack in the sidewalk.

[reyd reid reed]

3. Awwwwww...

:hug:

[SeattleGirl]

2. Absolutely.

Fortunately, not in awhile, but yes, I've been there. Crappy, rotten feeling, that is.

[reyd reid reed]

4. Yup.

I'm glad it's been a while...and I hope you never visit that place again.

[jobycom]

5. Until I separated, almost every day. Luckily, I

am a pacifist, so I cut screams short, and I have no real patience with myself when I go into self-pity mode, so I glare at myself until I snap out of it.

[reyd reid reed]

6. Sounds like a plan to me...

I'm in it pretty deep right now, though.

[jobycom]

7. Suspected as much.

Just from the post, not from any inside knowledge. I've had a couple of times when Hell overwhelmed me and I could barely hang on. Not as frightning as what you've gone through recently. But pretty bad. There's no easy way through it. Like I need to tell you that. I'm just trying to say good luck and hang in there in a way that doesn't sound offhanded or naive, I guess. So, good luck and hang in there, and I mean that!

[reyd reid reed]

12. Oh, I'll hang on...

I always do. And then I feel stupid. I'm used to that, though.

Or I should be.

[KitchenWitch]

8. I feel that way often!

I have done primal scream therapy when driving on the freeway alone in the car. It really helps.

[reyd reid reed]

10. I generally crank the car stereo louder with every song until

I can't hear myself sing along anymore.

Which is probably a good thing for everyone concerned...

:D

[jobycom]

13. I do that, too, except I do it while I'm jogging and listening to my

headphones.

[Deja Q]

9. As a result of something I attempted to do last week.

[reyd reid reed]

11. Didn't go well?

[Deja Q]

15. Well, that depends on your point of view...

:blush:

Let's just say it didn't go well and that it was ultimately a good thing that it didn't go well.

[Floogeldy]

14. No

:smoke:

[reyd reid reed]

17. Of course not...

Because that would be uncool. And...well...we all know...


B-)

[Floogeldy]

19. True. I am WAY COOL!!!!!!!

:)

[Ptah]

16. The death of my brother.

He took this photograph:




At least he got to know my son:



:scream:

[reyd reid reed]

18. That's an incredible photo...

:hug:

[Ptah]

20. When he was twelve and I was thirteen, he showed me the moons

of Jupiter through his 4" Edmund Scientific reflector telescope.

This was in 1963.

:hug:


Edit the year.

[Lisa]

21. Today at around noon ...

My boss decided that he wouldn't use most of the graphs and charts I'd made up, because he couldn't be bothered writing a summary of them for the report we've been working on. I had worked all day and night until almost 5 this morning, re-doing them after he'd changed his mind several times about which trends he wanted me to plot, and which cases to use. And then I came in again at 9 to help assemble the report. I ended up talking my boss into letting me write part of it, on the fly, just to salvage some of the earlier work ... because I know that he would be saying "why didn't we put this in?", first thing on Monday morning. (I know I've probably been manipulated, because I'm not eligible for overtime, and that it would have been a lot easier for me to just shrug and let it go...)

What really capped it off for me was realizing that I'd bailed out of dinner with a friend of mine yesterday, in order to finish that work -- almost all for nothing. She's been going through a difficult time lately, plus she is preparing to write a professional training exam, and she had requested to see me because she had a bunch of questions. She doesn't ask for help very often -- and I tried to make time for her because I knew how much it meant to her. It took us longer than expected to go over her questions, and we had barely gotten halfway through when I saw what time it was. I'd explained why I had to go, because I didn't want her to think I was brushing her off -- but now I'm wishing I'd just made up an excuse. She went from being upset to feeling really guilty ("I kept you too long, and you'll be too tired to work") ... now she's beating up on herself and saying she's having second thoughts about writing that exam at all.

So I'm stifling frustrated screams right now, because I can't criticize my boss for not being organized (or I won't get hired for the next project). Likely I have only myself to blame, for getting into this situation. And I can't say anything else to my friend, the usual person I talk to when my job is getting me down, or it'll just make things worse for both of us.

Of course, this is small potatoes compared to what a lot of other people are dealing with!

[reyd reid reed]

22. Don't compare...

Nothing to be gained.

Just...

:hug: