Everyone say thank you to Mrs R, please. Without her, I might not be

[Redstone]

here tonight. I mean here on DU, functioning normally (or as normally as I ever do).

I lost my fucking mind last night. I mean just COMPLETELY lost my grip, my marbles, however you want to put it, I couldn't find it. Or them. Didn't even know they were gone, actually. But I was gone, that's for sure. I moved out and the bats took up residence in the ol' belfry for a while. And why wouldn't they? There was plenty of empty space up there.

But she yanked me out of it. I was going dissociative and probably would have found myself in Ohio or someplace this morning if she hadn't yanked me out of it. And her with no professional training. What a woman.

No, I did not get violent or loud or abusive, just stark staring, as the wonderful Brit expression puts it; see above.

I was fine this morning. Am fine still. Only thanks to Mrs R.

Redstone

[MissB]

1. Well she must be as amazing as you.

:hug:

[Redstone]

9. Oh, she is amazing. She told me that she was terrified (not afraid of me,

just that "she could see me going away") and was planning to call one of the policemen who live in the neighborhood for help, but fortunately didn't have to. I owe her big.

Redstone

[MaggieSwanson]

2. Thank you, Mrs R

You are truly a gem. Redstone, you're a lucky man - glad to hear you are feeling better.

:grouphug:

[In_The_Wind]

3. Thanks a whole bunch Mrs. Redstone!

I really would miss having your husband around. :hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

4. My dear Redstone.........

Many thanks to your lovely wife for saving you!

For her sake, and for ours!

LIfe would not be so good without you around, to keep us calm and informed...

I am grateful to her for having saved you!

[Redstone]

12. Me? "Keep you calm?" hah!

I couldn't keep myself in my own skin last night, so don't count on me being much of an anchor.

But thanks for the nice words.

Redstone

[La Lioness Priyanka]

5. thank you mrs r

we would have missed redstone.

are you ok now?

:hug:

[Redstone]

8. Yes, thanks. In case you missed it in the other thread, let me say

again how fortunate we Americans are to have you be officially one of us now.

We could use a lot more like you.

Redstone

[Pacifist Patriot]

6. Muchas gracias Mrs. R.

[Kat45]

7. Merci, Madame Redstone.

Glad you were able to pull your husband back from the brink.

[ScreamingMeemie]

10. Must have been the moon, eh?

Glad your back with us, and not in Ohio. Thank MrsR for me. Both of you are special.

[graywarrior]

11. Glad you listened.

Stay cool.

[Redstone]

14. I think I'm all right. I talked to my shrink today, and he said that

fugue states are generally not recurrent, even though I've had milder versions of them before.

I just have to watch for the next Pain Crisis, because that's what probably triggered it. But instead of ladling in the emergency Demerol and telling Mrs R I needed her to pitch me into the hydrotherapy tub, I decided I was going to be a Tough Guy and not bother her. Bad idea.

I'm not going to make that mistake again. I, of all people, should know how nutso pain can make you get.

Thanks for your concern and advice.

Redstone

[graywarrior]

16. Next time, cry like a baby.

We won't laugh. Promise.

[Redstone]

18. I can't. Seriously. I don't know how.

My parents thought there was something wrong with me (gee, really?) because I stopped crying when I was about three. Just like that. And never have since.

I lock up instead. There's probably some kind of complex psychological explanation, but what would be the point of knowing what it is?

We are what we end up being.

Redstone

[graywarrior]

22. I didn't cry for 15 years, even when both parents died the same year.

It's hard not crying.

[Redstone]

23. I lost both parents in one year too. Had to speak at both funerals.

Would rather have been able to just sit in the crowd...

Redstone

[graywarrior]

29. Hate to tell you this, but if I have a control issue, you may also.

[Redstone]

33. What issue? Nothing wrong with being in control.

Is there?

"He who keeps his head when all about him are losing theirs..."

Redstone

[flvegan]

13. THANK YOU, MRS. REDSTONE!!!!!

DU would not bet the same, nor would the world as we know it without the balance that Sir Redstone brings to us.

Glad to hear that you're okay, brother. Even more glad to hear that you've got a fantastic woman that ensures that you're completely here.

No good man has ever existed without an even better woman keeping tabs on that "good" man.

Thus spoke flvegan.

[Redstone]

15. And thus speaks Redstone: Mrs R is going to have a damn nice and

damn expensive dinner on Saturday night, whether she likes it or not.

Thirty-eight dollar Zuppa d' Pesce at the high-end Italian place in town? Done.

Finest wine from our special reserve with that, Madam R? Done.

Bribe the kid who does the sitting for our little guy to stay for a couple of extra hours? Priceless.

I joke now, but I really was that close. Fuck me, it was; I could feel it happening.

Thank you for the good words, my friend. That's another beer on me.

Redstone

[flvegan]

21. Nah, brother

It's one on me, to Mrs. Redstone AND Mr. Redstone from me. I'll have it no other way.

I'm stubborn...you know this.

[Redstone]

24. OK, you buy.

(But I get the second round.)

Or you could come by the house for Mango Margaritas. Vegan as they come, those drinks are.

Redstone

[flvegan]

25. However that works

regardless...

Vegan goes to the wind in some instances, brother.

I'd look forward, regardless, to Mango Margaritas. That sounds GOOOOOOOODDD!!!

[Redstone]

31. Certified Organic mangoes. Juice of Key limes. Italian Gran Gala

(even better than Grand Marnier, and two-thirds the price). Patron tequila.

Oh, yes. Nobody makes them like Mrs R. Ask any of our neighbors; they absolutely salivate when we tell them it's time for another party at casa Redstone. (We have the only good-size screened porch in the neighborhood to retreat to when the skeeters get bad.)

Redstone

[flvegan]

41. I'm crashing at your house, I hope

Gosh, but that sounds good.

However, other things on my mind tonight. Please forgive me...

[Blue_Roses]

32. sounds like she's

got a great guy too! My husband was gonna take me to "Wing King" on our anniversary:eyes: until I said, "that would be grounds for divorce!"

[Redstone]

35. Hey, I took her to the Clam Shack in Madison for Mother's Day one

year, and she didn't mind.

(She REALLY likes seafood, and everywhere else was crowded. That started a tradition; we've been going there for Mother's Day every year since - 10 years.)

Redstone

[Blue_Roses]

38. I could handle "joes' crab shack"

the clam shack, or anything else, but "Wing King"...you just have to see it to believe it.

[Redstone]

40. Never heard of it, but I can imagine. I bet the wings aren't even

all that good.

Redstone

[RevCheesehead]

17. Everyone loses it from time to time.

We all have different things which keep us going. I am grateful that you have Mrs. R in your life. She truly sounds like a remarkable woman.

And, remember that we're here for you, too. Please feel free to PM me if ya want to talk, or whatever.

:hug:

[Redstone]

26. Thank you too much, Rev. I know you mean it.

We'll see how things shake out. As I said, my shrink thinks I'll be OK as long as I don't push my luck when the next Pain Crisis hits (and it will).

I've never been afraid of anything in my life (not saying that's a good thing, because I know it's not), but I have to say that some of the things I remember from last night, well...give me pause.

I'm damn lucky I didn't end up in the hospital. Or in Wisconsin. That was close to happening.

Redstone

[RevCheesehead]

37. Now you're just teasing me....

Redstone in Wisconsin? :loveya:
Make sure you get my phone number first, OK?

Be good to yourself, and try to forgive yourself. I'm certain that Mrs. R already has. :hug:

[Redstone]

42. She doesn't feel there's anything to forgive. She knows my history.

She was just very scared, and I don't blame her.

I ended up in Wisconsin some morning not remembering how I got there, I'd find a way to post on DU and ask for directions to your town. Promise.

Redstone

[Droopy]

19. Everybody goes crazy at some point in their life

It's just making it back that gives you stories to tell. Some never make it back. You are a lucky man to have a woman like that. You should make her happy at every opportunity.

[merh]

20. Thank you so much, MrsR. (((hugs)))

I'd be lost without Redstone, thanks for helping him find his way back.



I checked out last month, lost my mind and went off the deep end myself.
I hurt some friends and just lost it. Had it not been for our loving spiritual
leader here at DU, I don't know what would have become of me. (Thanks Rev :hug: )

Thank God for friends that love us, despite us. :hug: :loveya:

:grouphug:

[Redstone]

36. Rev's a peach. "Spiritual Leader?" I'd agree.

Only last month? Amazing that it took you so long to crack, with the things you've been through.

Redstone

[merh]

39. Oh, believe me

I'm not all together where I should be and nowhere near as strong as some think.

I think you know what I mean when I say "the stronger we are, the harder we fall"

Sometimes it's just too much of too much. Thank God you were smart enough to make MrsR, MrsR.
Thank God for you and for the rest of us that simply adore you.

(((hugs)))

m

[Redstone]

45. I know what you mean by that statement. I do.

And yes, sometimes too much is too much. But that's what we are here for.

For you.

Redstone

[merh]

48. and for you.

:hug:

[GOPisEvil]

27. Goodness. Good thing Mrs. R was there for you.

Scary stuff.

[Floogeldy]

28. Psychosis?

Or not?

[Redstone]

43. No psychosis. More like fault slippage making an earthquake.

Redstone

[WindRavenX]

30. everyone loses it sometimes

Not everyone has someone like Mrs.R to pull them back. Thank you, Mrs.R.

[SeattleGirl]

34. Thank you, Mrs. R. Glad you were there when Redstone

really needed you.

And you, Sir, I hope you are doing better Sounds like you are, but goodness, seems you really had a time of it last night.

:hug: For you and Mrs. R.

[Redstone]

44. Thank you, SG and everyone else for the attention. I'm sorry I spent

all night with this thread, selfishly, rather than contributing to other people's threads as I should have done. Will do better next time.

The pain is coming back. I gotta go. No repetition of last night, dammit; I really don't want to go away, I like here. It's a good place.

Redstone

[LynzM]

46. Hugs to you

Get some sleep, no running away. I'm not driving to Wisconsin to have lunch with you ;)

Seriously, I'm glad she was able to keep you around/ bring you back. Give her a hug from me, would you?

More, but I'll PM it to you tomorrow!

[Dangerously Amused]

47. Glad you're still around.

Thank you, Mrs. R. We love him, too.