AAAARRRGGGHHHHH

[ffm172]

I know I have an email in my online mailbox and I can't open that friggin page!!!!! If that is an email from my bf I am mad as hell because I have to wait to read it till the site is up again. UNFAIR :cry:
of course if it is not a mail from my bf I will be mad as soon as I can log in

[Freebird12004]

1. "Being Mad Only Sends Your Blood Pressure Up"

:hug:

[ffm172]

2. thanks for the hug

I just hate when that happens.

[Freebird12004]

3. "I Got So Nuts"

about my computer cable service :argh: that when I got my laptop I had it set for a dial up modem. ... Because my ex-boyfriend and I communicated by email more than by phone.

[ffm172]

4. I would have gone nuts about that also

Right now I think, their email server is down so I keep checking and hopefully I can check my mails soon again.
My bf and I communicate mostly on the phone but email also. He sends me stuff for me to read.

[Freebird12004]

8. "There's No Doubt About It - I'm Addicted"

to my computer ... one time :mad: when the power was out ... I felt so disconnected, :cry: like I lost a friend. :wow: That's when I recognized my :scared: addiction.

[ffm172]

11. Oh I admit my addiction to certain pages

like DU. Sometimes the internet is down here at work. And then I feel like screaming. Beside I do need the internet for work also.

[Freebird12004]

17. "I'm Retired - Let The Fun & Games Begin"

I've learned a quite a bit using my computer. It certainly keeps me from boredom and I've made so many cyber-friends that I really do miss if I can't reach out and touch them in someway.

[ffm172]

20. I know how you feel

I met a lot of people online also, including my bf. Sometimes I am trying to imagine how it was without computer because so much things are getting done via PC, it is hard to remember. I can't imagine living without PC anymore. Just ordered me a new one today.

[Freebird12004]

38. "Great"

I got my first computer 3 years ago and I'm not exaggerating when I say "I Knew Absolutely Nothing About Computers!" I'm learning as I go.

I met "The Ex-boyfriend" on-line, we might never have met without computers.

Yep, computers rate up there right along-side in-door-pluming on my list of necessary things.

[ffm172]

41. I am used to PCs since a kid

PC came to market when I was about 12. I remember my parents having a Scheider (German PC company) in East Germany. Which was really very rare. Since then I am used to computers. I even work with them every day.

[Freebird12004]

66. "Lucky Kid"

When I was a teen - I worked for a department store that used a computer for billing - that darned thing {the computer}was in an air-conditioned sealed room that seemed huge.

[farmbo]

5. False alarm...I thought it was National Talk-Like-a-Pirate Day...

...and I was woefully unprepared.

[ffm172]

6. you prepared now??

[xmas74]

7. Bad day?

:hug:

[ffm172]

9. not really

just pissed that the email server is down.
How you doing today :hi:

[xmas74]

13. I have been

debating about quitting the second job and moving back in w/ my parents. I am just too worn out! I don't think that I can handle it much longer.

[ffm172]

14. no wonder you worn out

from what you tell me you barely get any sleep. Do your parents live close to you?

[xmas74]

15. They moved in the same town as

me a couple of years ago. I don't really want to move back but it might be the only way to be able to afford anything.
I would pay them half of what I make but they will watch my daughter at night, instead of her going to a babysitter.

[ffm172]

16. wow, you really having a tough time

maybe it ain't such a bad idea for a while. That way you might be more relaxed to look for another job. How do your parents and your daughter feel about that?

[xmas74]

18. My parents and I don't get along very well

but they adore my daughter (only grandchild-until my brother marries in Oct. and then they will have 2 stepgrandchildren). My daughter always talks about "Grandma" and says that "Poppa" (my dad) is her best friend.
They are the ones who keep bringing up the idea. They are starting to realize how hard the market is out there.
I also have an aunt who is talking about loaning me the money to take my daughter's father to court and permanently revoke all of his rights toward her. I am really thinking of taking up that offer, but I would need to move home to pay her the money back (the attorney says to expect it to be between 5,000-10,000 dollars US).

[ffm172]

21. how do you feel about moving back with them?

a lot of money for the attorney. But if your aunt is willing to loan the money, it is worth a try to finally get your ex paying for his daughter.

[xmas74]

23. Actually, I don't want him

to pay for her (not anymore). His new(er) wife called about a year ago and asked me how much life insurance I had, since they were counting on me dying and them taking my child and getting the life insurance. They didn't want the insurance for my baby-they wanted money to spend (and they know that I will take out every two bit policy that I can afford. I am currently at around $1 million US-if I die).
I set up a will a year ago and have her guardianship down the line to a total of 22 people (family, friends-all have agreed to take her if something happened to me and then each on the list agreed to it if something happened to her next guardian, etc). If I died, even with a will in place, he could still sue for custody-and might have a chance of winning(since he's her biological father). The money he would receive would never benefit her and I can't let that happen. Besides, his wife now lost custody of her own child due to neglect. I will never let her have contact with my child.
If I legally revoke his rights, he could never sue for custody at a later date (in the case of my demise-stinks to think about it, but it happens when you least expect it to. And I want my daughter to be prepared).

[ffm172]

24. phew

that is a lot of shit going on! :hug:
So going to court would be about cutting all ties between your daughter and him. Are you scared that he might do something to you? Sounds like he could.

[xmas74]

27. possibly

but he is also afraid to go too far because of where I work. He knows that they would respond even faster than norma-gotta protect one of their own. And I think, in this case, there would be no qualms of using "police brutality". He also knows that I know the head and the associate prosecutors and that I know the area judges-nothing in his favor, since he lives about an hour and a half away.

[ffm172]

29. so you better stay at that job!!

so moving in with your parents would at least give you and your daugther a bit more security.

[xmas74]

30. Yep.

But then I could quit the part-time.
And I would have more time to spend with her.

[ffm172]

31. part time is the one at the motel, right?

how do you feel in your stomach about it? Not head but stomach?

[xmas74]

32. That quitting the motel would

be the best thing for me. The owners are obnoxious.

[ffm172]

33. then do it

there are always more motels where you could find a job if needed.

[xmas74]

34. True!

How much longer are you at work today?

[ffm172]

35. don't know yet

working some overtime. Maybe anoterh 1/2 to an hour. But I always can come online tonight again at home

[xmas74]

36. Overtime, every once in a while,

isn't so bad. It's every day when it starts to get to you!

[ffm172]

37. I can decide myself how long I want to work

I work in a library, so we do have our opening times. But it is my choice when I come (so it shouldn't be later than 9am) and go. I am not getting paid for the overtime but I can use it when I have an docs appointment or other things have to be done in my apt for example. Or if I have enough overtime I can take a day off without taking vacation time

[xmas74]

39. I had a job like that once

we called it comp time. Instead of paid overtime, you could accumulate the time and use it at a later date.

[ffm172]

40. that's it

normally I come in at 8am and stay till 4pm. And if needed comp time, I stay an hour longer. Works fine for. Nobody waiting for me at home anyway.

[xmas74]

45. So it's not too bad for you.

I used to build up many hours of comp time before I had my daughte.

[ffm172]

46. no, its a pretty easy going job

gets stressful once in a while but mostly it is quiet and peaceful

[xmas74]

49. Peaceful and quiet can be a very good thing.

[ffm172]

50. it is

except in the summer time when there is beautiful weather outside, most of the colleages are on vacation time and you are sitting alone in front of the PC and it is routine work. I used to work in an OPL, where I was all alone, I hated it.

[xmas74]

51. There are times when

it would be wonderful. Maybe because I have a lot of stress and noise at my job.

[ffm172]

52. finally could log in with my email

it was an email from my bf, as I suspected. Now I feel better :)

[xmas74]

55. That's great!

[Freebird12004]

10. "Pirate Day ... I'll Bring The Parrot"

:bounce:

[ffm172]

12. I bring the Rum

:toast:

[Freebird12004]

19. "Let The Fun Begin"

:party: :toast: :party:

[ffm172]

22. where do we meet?

:beer: :beer: :party:

[xmas74]

25. May I join?

:toast: :beer:

[ffm172]

26. of course

what a stupid question :crazy:

[xmas74]

28. Just asking!

:pals:

[Freebird12004]

43. "Come On A Long"

:party::party::party:

[xmas74]

48. What should I bring?

[ffm172]

53. yourself and your daughter

and a lot of fun

[xmas74]

54. I think I have some vodka in the freezer.

[ffm172]

56. there you go

maybe we should make sure someoone takes us home. I am sure I wonät be able to drive after that party

[xmas74]

57. We can get some

NYC phone books and teach my daughter how to drive!

[ffm172]

58. *laughing out loud*

how will she reach the gas and break?

[xmas74]

59. I don't know. I hadn't thought that far ahead.

I taught my brother how to drive. He was 12 and we needed someone to drive us home when we were drunk. He was many a 17 year olds best friend that year!

[ffm172]

60. Oh, I believe that unseen

maybe we can get her sticks to use as "longer legs". Or take the parrot Freebird is bringing to hop on the gas

[ffm172]

61. I am leaving now

don't start the party without me!!!

[xmas74]

62. See ya soon!

300 posts! :toast:

[Freebird12004]

64. "Anyone That Can Make You Smile"

even on a cloudy day:pals:

[Freebird12004]

42. "On An Island, At The Tiki Hut"

All our favorite DUers can join up :toast:

[ffm172]

44. deal

and everybody who is having a hard time :toast:

[Freebird12004]

65. " Smiles Are Contagious"

:think: spread it around

[ffm172]

47. you think we should let the Lounge know??

:evilgrin:

[Freebird12004]

63. " Sounds Like A Plan"

hopefully it won't get too rowdy :party: