Am I demented? Seriously...

[HEyHEY]

I just a=have to ask. Okay, eventually I would like to be a war correspondent. It's strange, when I hear people say "I'd never go there," I can't figure out why. And I think to myself " I don't care, I don't care if I go there and die." It's almost like I want it to happen. As long as it isn't painful. It's what my life is about.
I love laughing, singing, making merry. But I have this desire to go to a war zone it's nothing cryptic, as I hate human suffering, it's just something I feel I have to do.


I;ve been saucing, so I;m more honest I guess, welcome to HEyHEY's confusing world.

[Spinzonner]

1. Don't lose your head over it

[HEyHEY]

2. I'm not, really, I just can't understand why I'm different

I don't understand why I don't understand people.

[unblock]

3. it's noble, a sense of duty -- don't lose that

i grew up with just enough privilege and a good enough education that i could safely stay out of harms way if i want to.

and yet, after a car accident, i had an overwhelming need to help people in distress, and became became an emt. i passed up some high paying gigs to volunteer for most of a year.

in some sense, i feel like my high-paying job is important and does good in the world, but the reward of knowing you literally saved a life today was incomparable.

being an emt is very dangerous. i bandaged a patient during a domestic altercation and could easily have been injured myself. i was exposed to hepatitis-3. emts get shot, it happens.

and yet, somehow, that risk didn't phase me. it was something i had to do.

if i could somehow do that at the same time as my long-hour paying gig, i'd love to do more.

[Dzimbowicz]

4. If you are a reader

check out the book by John Laurence, The Cat From Hue. It is his account of three tours of duty as a CBS war correspondent in Vietnam and well worth the read.