Reply #9: Oh Hon... [View All]

[mntleo2]

I didn't say in my last post I have been there and I have also tried those new designer drugs. They worked for me for awhile, but my problem is that my medical coverage does not always happen and you can't just go off them cold turkey. I have done that and talk about black! Plus the most illogical thinking seemed to become logical and I went off the deep end ~ even knowing I was having to go off them cold turkey and trying to prepare myself.

When I heard that going off or starting these things have even caused people to murder loved ones and also become suicidal, well I could relate. I never got *that" way of thinking, but after some of the crazy things I did think were "logical" I understood why some of those people got into that frame of mind. It scared me enough to decide, "Hey I better learn how to not depend on that crap, I just have to learn how to deal with it another way," ~ and yeah you are right, I am lucky.

If you ever want to PM me and just chat, I am here to listen. Just write, and do not think I will think you are crazy, I will do my best to understand. Been there, done that. I have a very dysfunctional family ~ and besides my older sister, we have been through hell and back, and well we have made it and she is my best friend. She says I am the strongest person she knows, so I think I can take it.

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