Reply #27: I'm in the process right now [View All]

[puerco-bellies]

The markets have been so volatile I've "burned my book" several times in the last 8 months or so. I am tired of getting my clients, and by proxy my own ass kicked. My GF the lovely Ali has been suggesting that I change careers for some time now. She see's the stress that I go through, and thinks that commodities and stock brokers are little more then well heeled pirates.

So after another massacre a few weeks ago she offered a deal to me. I am rebuilding her shower, and she said that I should just take my time don't worry about anything but work on her house in Manhattan Beach, surf and think of what I want to do with my life. I gave up my apartment and moved in with her, while I sort things out. She wants me to disregard income potential, and just focus on what I want to do.. I am clueless as to what that is but I'm enjoying working with my hands, and loving surfing almost every day. I've just finished copper-piping her house and demoed the shower. I used to do construction as a youngster so it's not too challenging.

It is interesting that now that I am afforded the opportunity to do what I want, I suddenly don't have a clue. I really enjoyed the markets. I traded with integrity, with only with my clients interest in mind. Even though commodities are by nature brutal markets, and the stress can be unbearable at times, I thought that was what I would do with the rest of my working life. Now questions arise that since I don't know what to do with my life, who then am I? Strange to be 48 and suddenly clueless about so many basic questions. I don't have any answers for you, I'm just enjoying the process.
Good luck,
p-b

Edited because I don't proof read.