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[tinfoil tiaras]

Most people (including myself) are more real and true to who they are on the internet than they are in real life. I'm never fake with y'all on DU or on PTC-what you see is what you get in essence-but in real life, I admit, even though I hate fake people with a passion, I can be fake and not true to who I am sometimes.

So, I got that out of the way, now.

Maybe the reason people are more open and real here on the highways of the internets is because the internet is like the cloak of invisibility-a power humans have wanted since the beginning of time. And we've got it. You can be whoever you want to be on the internet. It's like moving to a new town and reinventing yourself. Believe me, if y'all could go to school with me, you would see a totally different part of my personality being exposed.

I admit it and y'all will be shocked. I don't have very many friends in real life. Most people think I'm obnoxious, loud, annoying, socially inept (or at least that's what I think they think about me...maybe I'm just being pessimistic) and therefore, don't want to really make friends with me. But most of y'all here see me as bright, spirited, energetic, etc. I have more friends here on DU than I do at school.

Wow. I feel uber pathetic now. I royally suck at life.

Everyones going to some fancy restaurant before homecoming. I'm not. Because no one's invited me.

Let me change that. I have friends at school, but they aren't in my grade. I feel like my mind is older than my numerical age. I feel that most of the people in my grade are extremely immature. So that might explain somethings.

I'm just rambling...needing to get this out of my system because it's been in here almost all week.

And when I try to make friends, it always backfires at me somehow. People ignore me. And I don't like to be ignored. It's like they're purposely going out of their way to do the one thing that they know will make me feel not included, left out and horrible-ignore me.

Fucking bitch. You're so fake. Dammit. Why. Fuck you class of 2010. Fuck you.

Aggression I need to get out ^^^.

Thanks for listening, DU.