Reply #17: horrors! have you ever had sleep paralysis? it's ghastly--and for 23 years? [View All]

[zazen]

You scream and you can't wake up. It's like being in a straitjacket. Speaking only for myself, I'd rather die than live that way for longer than a month. Solitude and silence are great when they're a choice. But to have your nerves screaming at you without being able to act. . . . that's like the eternal hell to which Anne Rice had the vampires condemn other vampires, right?

Horrible, horrible. God, I hope I can rewrite my living will to end such a condition. I'm going to have nightmares for a week.

What an amazing human being.

And I wonder how many times he had to listen to George W. Bush on the television without being able to reach for a remote or tell someone to turn that bumbling idiot off. That would have been the last hinge of my sanity.