my mom is dying . . .

[DollyM]

My mother has fought a very brave fight with cancer the the last 20 months but it looks like the beast if finally going to win. I lost my son two and a half years ago and if it hadn't been for my mother, I would have killed myself. She has been my rock and my best friend. I have heard it asked, which is worse, a quick sudden death or a prolonged illness. My son's death was due to a car accident and he was killed on impact. The numbess and shock that I felt got me through several weeks, with this, I have watched my mother hang between 2 worlds for the last couple of weeks and I can say that this is truly worse. I wish there was something I could do. We have a mother/daughter routine of getting a Frosty from Wendy's every week. When mom mom could eat nothing else, she could eat a frosty. Yesterday, I took her a Frosty, they told me she hadn't eaten all day and was unresponsive. When I said the word "Frosty" she opened her eyes and sat up in bed and I spooned bits of frosty into her mouth until had eaten nearly the whole thing. The nurse was amazed, I told her it was because she had the two things she loved there, Frosty's and Me! Today I took her KFC mashed potatoes and gravy but they had medicated her due to having increased pain so I did not get a response from her at all. That was really really hard. I am going to pick her up some treats and take them to the hospital. They has said she can have whatever she will eat as long as it soft so she won't choke. So I am taking chocolate pudding, whipped cream, a fresh frosty and whatever else I can think of.