I'm having a lot of trouble this season. 6 years gone.

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7. You never know when the sadnes is going to hit

I'm finding this out. Thanksgiving was a big holiday for my husband. He loved to cook. He would cook for 24 hours straight and just be so happy. And he invited everyone. I don't cook and feel people in my home are intruding. I had no way to replace my normal thanksgiving routine with a new one. I wound up volunteering at an event for homeless people that fed them, gave flu shots and provided showers and laundry I really forced myself and to be honest kinda hated it because I found out I wanted to be alone. But I think I will force myself to do something similar for the next anniversary of something that reminds me of my husband
I'm telling you this because if I stayed home I wouldn't have felt any better. And I'm thinking some days there's going to be nothing I can do to feel less sad.