My first Fathers Day without my Dad.

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4. This Is My First Father's Day Without Him As Well...

My Mom and I lost him April 20 and I am still "broken." My Mom is doing very well and my friends have all lost parents years before so I have felt very very alone. I bought white roses for the church altar since my Mom doesn't want to go to the grave until the headstone is in place. I still cry when I'm alone at night and I wonder when will I get to the point of feeling normal again. I'm single and no children so I don't have many distractions from the grieving.

I can't say his name without choking up. I live 4 hours away from my parents and the morning he went into distress, I raced into town. My Mom met me at the hospital Emergency door to say he'd just passed away 5 minutes before.

It seems like a very bad dream and time is passing so very quickly. It's coming up on 2 months already and I can't tell you where the time has gone...

I'm happy you all are adjusting well. I hope to get to that place, eventually.