Advice wanted for great relationship... gone...

[ClusterFreak]

17. Hi Delarage, and thanks for responding.

I liked the video message, the song lyrics make a lot of sense for sure.

I also can't disagree with your comments, you seemed to key in on my predicament with a great deal of precision. For me, I am totally not in it to save 'the love of my life' from walking out the door. I am open to a romantic relationship, but it does not motivate me to try and mend fences with her. I sincerely feel bad about how things so quickly deteriorated between us, and acknowledge that if I had handled myself with cool resolve instead of hot-tempered impetuosity, our falling out may have never happened. I would like her to forgive me, as I have forgiven her. Whether we can pick up as friends again and resume what we had, that's anybody's guess. I want the bad feelings to end. I want an end to that knot I've had in my stomach for two months. If we could shake hands and go our separate ways, I honestly could live with that. Right now though, she won't even take my calls or respond to any of my texts... which by the way have only numbered three over the last two plus months. Spaced out by two or three weeks each. Anyway... that's kind of an aside, but worthy of note I think.

The bottom line is... it's up to her. SHE has to want that handshake too, and let me know she wants it. If that's all she wants, again, I can live with that.

Cheers, and thanks again for your insight!