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In reply to the discussion: People, I'm so sad, angry, hopeless, helpless. [View all]Shiv
(113 posts)Just last night, I had what I can only explain as mild PTSD-like emotional flashback to Occupy WS and Occupy Flint, which I followed somewhat with a friend and shared some nights when I didn't spend till half the morning out, with my mom. Trying to keep abreast and find information that was being discovered and so on.
The moment was preceded by was watching another Flint live-stream and had the news on the tv, my mother and I were talking, and I went to tell her how this was resonating with that previous period for me, which had occurred to me that afternoon but been distracted.
I was suddenly emotionally choked up and overwhelmed, though I wasn't actively sad or angry or upset just at that moment. I had a few moments of trying to get the words out to her, to explain what was going on. She was concerned cause I was suddenly trying not to sob. It passed after a minute or two, and by the time I got through it and letting her know what I just felt happen, it occurred to me and almost made it wash back just how seriously this may trigger a response in people of her generation who lived through this all in the 60's and 70's.
Thankfully, a portion of that moment of sudden emotion was positive, it was profound. After an hour or two of talking about it, I figured out that part of what I was feeling was a difference in my experiences back with OWS times, that THIS moment had a clear and obvious point to everyone, that THIS moment had a clear and obvious purpose. It felt more and deeply powerful, tempered with cautious optimism.
I found it very interesting that for her it felt more like Ferguson than any memories she had from small town life back when she was my age, though she has always told me my father, whom grew up in a large urban environment, had always been twisted up after his experiences with that time in their youth. It's amazing the different things that lay down strongest memories, close and distant, immediate or historic.
Thank you and again, I feel for you
everyone could us a some days!