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In reply to the discussion: "Cowardly, Selfish" [View all]TygrBright
(20,733 posts)It is THE BEST description of depression I have run across on the whole Intertoobz. It's what I send people to, when I just don't have the energy to explain.
"Having no rhyme or reason" is one of the cruelest aspects of this pain. You can appear to have it made, be sitting in the catbird seat, surrounded by material security, loving people, great weather, work you love, everything anyone could ask for... and the jerkbrain turns it all inside out and tells you what a bad person you are for not appreciating all that stuff more. A horrid, horrid negative spiral.
The luckier I am, the less I deserve it, therefore the more awful a person I am... Learning the crazy scripts your brain uses to submarine you can be helpful, but it won't "stop" the brain chemicals from going wonky on you.
appreciatively,
Bright