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sprinkleeninow

(20,136 posts)
Sat Aug 1, 2020, 11:01 PM Aug 2020

I'm so distraught, weak and discouraged. ER visit last evening. Infection.

Not covid. I'm so weak, I don't know how I'll get out of all of this.

I don't understand it now. Faith like a mustard seed...

Feel imprisoned in my environment. In my own body. Like my spirit or soul wants escaping.

I will be grateful for any and all positivity coming from you, my sisters and brothers in humanity that are walking with me.

I desire a drastic change quickly.

Love from me in Him and Creation and the Universe we know. 💜

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I'm so distraught, weak and discouraged. ER visit last evening. Infection. (Original Post) sprinkleeninow Aug 2020 OP
8 Years Jesuit Education OAITW r.2.0 Aug 2020 #1
Will keep healing peaceful thoughts for you. onecaliberal Aug 2020 #2
Hang in there. You are needed and loved. cayugafalls Aug 2020 #3
Sending healing energy today you... pdxflyboy Aug 2020 #4
Sending you healing thoughts Sprinkle CanonRay Aug 2020 #5
Y'all bringing tears to my eyes and gratitude to my hurting heart. 💜 sprinkleeninow Aug 2020 #6
And mine OhNo-Really Aug 2020 #13
Rest dweller Aug 2020 #7
Believe in your inner strength. Sending you healing vibes. nt 42bambi Aug 2020 #8
Lighting a candle.......... alittlelark Aug 2020 #9
Prayers going up for you. Tess49 Aug 2020 #10
Take whatever meds they gave you, take naps and don't feel guilty doing it. Your body needs to rest appleannie1 Aug 2020 #11
Sending you much positivity and love. FM123 Aug 2020 #12
I don't know what I would do without your beautiful music AJT Aug 2020 #14
St. Luke and St. Pantaleimon, pray for us. shenmue Aug 2020 #15
Been a strong person my whole adult life and now weakened. sprinkleeninow Aug 2020 #16
I wish I could take some of your feelings of being overwhelmed. Jane Austin Aug 2020 #17
Oh, my dear sprinkleeninow! I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. littlemissmartypants Aug 2020 #18
You are not a burden. You are a precious, priceless gift. TygrBright Aug 2020 #19
Please be gentle with yourself, Sprinkle! majdrfrtim Aug 2020 #20
Dear Sprinkle, you are always there giving us hope and beauty. fierywoman Aug 2020 #21
Wishing you physical and spiritual... 3catwoman3 Aug 2020 #22
Sending warmth, love and peace to you now Sprinkle. appalachiablue Aug 2020 #23
Sending healing vibes. Do whatever helps you feel better rest-wise. Forgive yourself for diva77 Aug 2020 #24
My dear Sprinkle- No Vested Interest Aug 2020 #25
What's been put upon me is hurtful, but then contemplate Mary sprinkleeninow Aug 2020 #27
That which went before is history; it cannot be changed, only accepted for what it is/was. No Vested Interest Aug 2020 #29
I'm in a battle of a spiritual nature. In addition to a sprinkleeninow Aug 2020 #26
Keep lozenges with you and by your bedside. No Vested Interest Aug 2020 #28
Thanks be to the Creator for all of you, Crowns of Creation. sprinkleeninow Aug 2020 #30
Hope you have a better night tonight, and going forward. No Vested Interest Aug 2020 #31

cayugafalls

(5,631 posts)
3. Hang in there. You are needed and loved.
Sat Aug 1, 2020, 11:12 PM
Aug 2020

Drink plenty of water and get some good rest. Take it easy and don't over stress yourself.

You deserve a break, we will all be here when you get back.

Be well.

OhNo-Really

(3,985 posts)
13. And mine
Sat Aug 1, 2020, 11:42 PM
Aug 2020

I was where you are. A friend recommended an APP

I haven’t turned on the TV in several days.

I had my first goodnight sleep in weeks last night according to FitBit. I sure felt better today.

If you have a Library Card Check out LIBBY




Dark nights are followed by the dawn.

I hope you feel better soon

This is the worst of times, but we will rally and come out better for it.

✨✨🙏💕✨✨

appleannie1

(5,044 posts)
11. Take whatever meds they gave you, take naps and don't feel guilty doing it. Your body needs to rest
Sat Aug 1, 2020, 11:36 PM
Aug 2020

That is when you heal. If you feel hungry, eat healthy foods. Drink lots of liquids to help wash the infection out of your body. Think good thoughts and pray good prayers.

AJT

(5,240 posts)
14. I don't know what I would do without your beautiful music
Sat Aug 1, 2020, 11:47 PM
Aug 2020

and inspirational posts. You have been such a help to me. When I read the passages or listen to the calming beautiful music you post it really lifts me. You are needed,appreciated and loved.
Hang in there. I don't know what kind of change you are looking for, but give yourself time.

sprinkleeninow

(20,136 posts)
16. Been a strong person my whole adult life and now weakened.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 12:26 AM
Aug 2020

Everything has clopped on me.

I thought the biggest trial of my life occurred last year. But now perhaps not.

God forgive me what I'm about to say. I read earlier that there's a state one may find themselves in. You won't end your life yourself by any means, but you don't want to continue to live feeling this way.

The atrocious state of being we find ourselves in, compliments of 45 and his, makes personal distress magnified a 1000X worse.

You are all so kind. I don't wish to be burdening anyone. My desire is to have strength and relatively decent health to accomplish what I am charged to do in my remaining time.

💜

Jane Austin

(9,199 posts)
17. I wish I could take some of your feelings of being overwhelmed.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 01:19 AM
Aug 2020

Remember, you don't have to fix it all. Just try to get some sleep, along with a little vitamin D and some fresh food.

Hope to hear you are feeling stronger soon.

littlemissmartypants

(22,418 posts)
18. Oh, my dear sprinkleeninow! I am so sorry you are having such a hard time.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 01:21 AM
Aug 2020

If I was there I would lend you one of my puppies. I have two and I am sure one would help you feel better. I'll keep the one that bites but has no teeth so it doesn't hurt. You can have the one that laughs but sounds like he's panting when he does it. I actually took him to the vet thinking there was something wrong with him and the vet said no, he's just happy. So he's the puppy for you. ❤

I love you and I am sending you all the positive vibes I can muster. Hang in there, sweetie. This too shall pass.

❤ lmsp



TygrBright

(20,733 posts)
19. You are not a burden. You are a precious, priceless gift.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 01:28 AM
Aug 2020

Pain takes so many forms, and they are not easy. Being human includes experiencing pain. Loving includes experiencing pain. Weariness can be pain. Depression can be pain.

But without pain, there can be no hope, no love, no human kindness, no salvation, no warm and loving connections with one another.

HOPE: Hold On, Pain Ends.

Your life, your connection to others, your humanity enriches us all.

Holding you in the Light. You are stronger than you know.

trustingly,
Bright

fierywoman

(7,641 posts)
21. Dear Sprinkle, you are always there giving us hope and beauty.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 01:35 AM
Aug 2020

I know you are deeply spiritual -- I was deeply moved and encouraged by this today from Caroline Myss -- I love the ending when she recommends how to pray. Love and light and peace to you!

appalachiablue

(41,056 posts)
23. Sending warmth, love and peace to you now Sprinkle.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 01:53 AM
Aug 2020

You are treasured and needed.

Music brings joy and also peace to the soul in trying times as you know. It's thought to increase positive brain chemicals and I believe it.

diva77

(7,606 posts)
24. Sending healing vibes. Do whatever helps you feel better rest-wise. Forgive yourself for
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 01:59 AM
Aug 2020

whatever challenges you have been unable to surmount at this time. Please let us know how you are doing when you're able.



No Vested Interest

(5,157 posts)
25. My dear Sprinkle-
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 03:06 AM
Aug 2020

Let go, let God....

Ask help of Archangel Raphael, the patron of healing.
Raphael, stand by Sprinkle in her need.

"Mother Mary, show me the way".
This is a short prayer I made up. I have come to realize that Mary lived most of her life as a widow, though we do not hear this spoken of by our clergy. Surely there is much Mary can show us in how to live out that period of our lives as we are intended to do.

Give your body, mind and soul permission to take the break needed to recover.

Know that you are loved.

Be at peace.

sprinkleeninow

(20,136 posts)
27. What's been put upon me is hurtful, but then contemplate Mary
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 03:35 AM
Aug 2020

we do call her 'Mother of God' witnessing her child being tortured and put to death. And helpless to stop it.

My suffering comes not remotely close.

I don't have answers. Yes, I have explanations from the spiritual dept. But they're not consoling at times.

I'm also in a kinda torment having recollection of my married life with my husband. Chasing after mindless and vain rubbish offered by the 'world'. This is the grief that has intensified. 💙

No Vested Interest

(5,157 posts)
29. That which went before is history; it cannot be changed, only accepted for what it is/was.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 03:47 AM
Aug 2020

We all have aspects of our lives that we realize are/were less than perfect.
Forgive oneself for the past.
Forgive the other- your husband- for when he didn't measure up.
Christ forgives you; follow His lead in this regard.

Why should we realistically not expect to recognize that we can't do it all.

sprinkleeninow

(20,136 posts)
26. I'm in a battle of a spiritual nature. In addition to a
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 03:27 AM
Aug 2020

bladder infection which explains the severe weakness, something's wrong with my throat/pharynx/esophagus. I've hardly been eating. Difficulty swallowing. Then keep clearing my throat until it's horribly sensitive. In the last month I choked on saliva or juices from an antacid. My breath was completely cut off.

I just went thru an episode of throat clearing. Why not. Cutting into my sleep.

Through it I went into a tirade and seemingly coming close to what it appears as spiritual death.

This whole throat combo came on me quite suddenly. And ridiculous me expected it to go as quickly.

I don't know what I'm going to do with this. How to proceed.

Am I hurt? Am I shunned? Am I forsaken? I feel I have been.

I need a resolution.

Thanking all for your support and mostly for listening to me, a chief of sinners, wail.

I'm scared. Concerning my physical condition and especially my spiritual condition presently.

💙

No Vested Interest

(5,157 posts)
28. Keep lozenges with you and by your bedside.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 03:36 AM
Aug 2020

Suck on one as needed, but especially at bedtime, to give a little coating to the throat as you relax to sleep.

The meds may take a little out of you physically for while you're taking them. Just go along for the ride.

You might ask you doctor for a little something for anxiety. I have been taking such for years, at bedtime, and it does make relaxing & sleep easier..

You do not need a resolution tonight. Put those concerns up on a closet shelf for tonight; pick them up tomorrow when ready.

sprinkleeninow

(20,136 posts)
30. Thanks be to the Creator for all of you, Crowns of Creation.
Sun Aug 2, 2020, 08:31 PM
Aug 2020

Had a bad night. Getting with my doc tomorrow. ER gave me Rx for nitrofurantoin mono/macro 100mg. I asked for Cipro and got answer that's for kidney infection. Gonna ask for Cipro tomorrow. 2011, two ERs in one week with same infection. Bactrim from 1st ER, stopped taking, felt creepy. Next ER trip, "you don't have an infection." 😣 But I still did. Referral to a rheumatologist. No MS, no Lupus. Evidence of Epstein Barr antibodies from the 70's. "Everybody has them from mono." 🙄

Doc was not gonna test for recent infection until I pretty much demanded one. For $350 consult? I still had the bladder infection!!! Prescribed Bactrim (I call it 'spectracide'). Called her office. I won't take what you prescribed. Refused it at the pharmacy. Finally got Cipro and that did the trick. Now again I got prescribed some stuff I'm not used to

Thanx for listening. 💜

No Vested Interest

(5,157 posts)
31. Hope you have a better night tonight, and going forward.
Mon Aug 3, 2020, 03:25 AM
Aug 2020

ER docs don't always get it right. I'm glad they're there to get us through the emergency situation, and glad when the tests show that the body will get through the episode.

Sometimes the tests show other conditions you didn't realize you had, as recently happened to me. Well, that's solid information I wouldn't have had otherwise. Now, to deal with the next episode. After a certain age, it's always something.

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