Today's the day. After being rescheduled twice, I'm seeing the rude, problematic APN, again.

[Siwsan]

1:20 this afternoon, and only because the practice manager asked me to give this woman one more chance. My anxiety is already red lining so I'm taking everything I'm prescribed, before I go. Especially the 'as needed' because they are.

I really, really, REALLY hope this is a whole different experience. I really, really, REALLY hope she listens to me. My next therapy appointment isn't until Sept 15, although he said to call if I need to move it forward.

My blood pressure, which has been great, is now elevated. Let's face it, my BP elevates when they call to confirm an appointment. Yet they say that 'doesn't happen. I have decided that if she hasn't listened to advice (she was talked to about her behavior towards me, after that last appointment) and is as disrespectful and impatient as she was at that last appointment, I will cut it short and ask for the practice manager to call me. Honestly, all I expect is someone who is patient, respectful, and will listen to me

At least I have my paperwork with me - advanced directive, etc, so she won't have to threaten me with crushing my fragile, feeble body doing CPR (yes, she said that), should the need occur I sure wish I could bring Tudor along as my 'service animal'.

Anyway, as many good vibes as you can spare will be appreciated.

[mercuryblues]

1. Just remember

How she treated you before. It took you by surprise then. If she does it this time, you have a plan of action. Start with walking out on her. You have that power. Don't let her bully and intimidate you out of it.


My best wishes for you today. Sending you

[Siwsan]

3. Thanks.

I HATE that I can't control this anxiety bordering on a panic attack, this morning. I'm going to spend time cuddling with the kidcats.

Maybe part of the problem with her is she's very young. My previous APN was pretty contemporary in age to me and she had lots of experience.

I've made it perfectly clear that, at 70, I know the odds of me surviving a catastrophic disease are zip. And I have no desire to spend my last years being under constant hospitalizations, surgeries, treatments, etc. I watched far too many family members hold on to false hope and they died horrifying deaths. And there's a strong line of Alzheimer's on my mom's side of the family. Should I get a terminal diagnosis, maybe I'll take up sky diving or roller coaster riding. I'm incredibly terrified of heights, speed, and especially the combo of the two.

That saves me from becoming a burden on my family and also retains my estate for them to divide.

Of course, my grandfather lived to 97, my aunt to 98, my great grandmother to 100 and my grandmother's niece to 104.

[niyad]

2. Hugggggggs. And vibes for a better outcome than last time. I do not want

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tto have to have a little chat with her about her behaviour toward you.

[mercuryblues]

4. We could send Skittles there.

I bet she hasn't given anyone a good ass-kicking in a while.

[niyad]

5. You are absolutely correct.