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Related: About this forumI am heartbroken.
My two dogs have declined very quickly. They are 15 1/2 years old and we've had them since they were found on the road at 3 months old. They have similar brindle coloring and could be littermates, although their build is very different. Sam is definitely a "Heinz 57" while Sidney is the picture of a Plott Hound. They are both as sweet as they can be. They are wonderful, wonderful dogs who think they are horses... or else the horse thinks she is a dog. It's not clear.
Sam can barely walk, despite a heavy cocktail of pain meds. He looks like a drunken sailor when he tries. Sidney is less lame, but won't eat enough calories of any food to maintain her weight. She seriously looks like she doesn't have a mom. She loves to try different things, but just won't eat enough. This is her "fat" season and you can see every bone in her body.
I came across a professional picture that was taken of all 3 of us in 2015 when they were hearty and smiling big doggy smiles. If nothing else, that cements in my head how far they have gone down.
I made an appointment for a final "farm call" next Tuesday, with the crematory to arrive at the same time. They have had a life together and will go together, in every way. I don't want the last thing to be a traumatic car ride (they hate vehicles of any kind), and then try to figure out how to lift them out. Let them lounge on the grass instead, until the vet they know and love arrives.
The thing about dogs is that they will force a smile and wag their tails until the very last day. Cats are hard enough, but at least they sort of withdraw at the end... well, all of ours all did.
They've had a good life by any measure, especially for 50+pound dogs. But let's not let rationality get in the way. We want them to be happy and healthy for far longer than this, but we do normally outlive our beloved pets.
I know this group will understand. I just wanted to say it. I have plenty of support from friends who will actually be here with me, and I'm so thankful for that. But, damn, it hurts!
sinkingfeeling
(51,474 posts)piddyprints
(14,648 posts)Thank you so much. Sometimes I feel like I'm plotting their murder. It's so comforting to have friends who understand. I really do not want them to suffer. I love them so much.
femmedem
(8,208 posts)And the hardest.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)Well, the kindness part. I know it's the hardest. Made worse by having to wait so long for a farm call. Vets are just so busy these days.
blm
(113,095 posts)3catwoman3
(24,051 posts)...of our vets once said to me that we bring our animals into our lives, knowing that we will most likely outlive them. We do it anyway, because life is so much richer with them in it. Many, many cats have enriched my life and left their paw prints on my heart.
I have chosen the terminology "liberating the spirit" when the time comes to let them go. I don't like "put down" or "put to sleep," and euthanize sounds so clinical. May that final farm call to liberate their spirits be peaceful.
Hugs from afar -
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)This is an especially bad year for us. When you adopt babies all at the same time ...
I couldn't live without my furbabies.
Love your terminology. I will try to remember it.
XanaDUer2
(10,739 posts)piddyprints
(14,648 posts)It's nice not to be alone right now.
XanaDUer2
(10,739 posts)brer cat
(24,612 posts)No matter how well our head knows we are doing the right thing, our heart still breaks.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)Everyone who has known them all these years agrees that it's time. If it weren't, I wouldn't be struggling. It would just be another day. That's the head.
The heart is completely broken. Thank you.
CousinIT
(9,259 posts)Not taking them out of their home, letting them go together, unaware, comfortable as can be, happy and not alone. It will hurt you more than them. But that's love. And right now for them, it's everything.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)I love them so much. I have to remember that it's best for them.
Claustrum
(4,846 posts)Your story gave me a flashback to last year when my cat died. He was having difficulty walking where he would fall once in a while like a drunken sailor as you described.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)The muscles just don't cooperate.
I'm so sorry about your cat.
mercuryblues
(14,539 posts)I think Sidney is feeling Sam's pain. Hug them both extra special.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)She bumps him in the tummy trying to get him to stand up if she thinks he's been lying down for too long. Everyone thinks this about their dogs, but they are really the best dogs ever. Just so sweet and awesome.
UpInArms
(51,284 posts)Goodbyes to our best unconditional friends hurt so much
(((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)If I ever did anything to hurt or offend them, you'd never know. They're really the definition of love.
irisblue
(33,034 posts)piddyprints
(14,648 posts)It's so nice to be with people who get it.
dixiechiken1
(2,113 posts)Sending you light and love. I am so sorry. 💔
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)Thank you.
redstateblues
(10,565 posts)piddyprints
(14,648 posts)zeusdogmom
(998 posts)Our fur babies never stay with us long enough. Hugs to you and kudos for being a good pet parent when a hard decision needs to be made
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)The harder it is. But its been 15 wonderful years and a few months of decline.
I sometimes wonder if Im a good enough pet parent, but I do what I can. Thank you for your kindness.
FoxNewsSucks
(10,435 posts)dogs are the best family members ever.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)That's a great comic. It says it all.
Triloon
(506 posts)It's such an awful thing. I'm a mess. It is so good you have friends there. I keep quoting Hemingway to myself - "The sun also rises." It only helps a little.
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)There's really not a lot that helps. Still, it's good not to be alone.
With all the pain, I would do it all again.
LetMyPeopleVote
(145,567 posts)It is hard to say goodbye to just one member of the family and even tougher for two
piddyprints
(14,648 posts)This will be 3 for the year so far. We had to say goodbye to one of our 16-year-old cats a few months ago. This is the first time we've had two together, but it's the right thing to do for them.
IrishAfricanAmerican
(3,818 posts)We had to put our Jack Russell, Jake, down on the 18th. He was 16.5 and I had him since he was 3 months. It's tough but all part of the cycle, as you know. Virtual hugs to you and yours.
niyad
(113,581 posts)friends are right there with you as well Sending vibes for strength and healing and peace.
peacebuzzard
(5,183 posts)tried to post but was in a remote area.
I am terribly sorry for this moment you are in, I know this moment so well.
Your little angels are so special, I hope for much peace at this time.