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Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:29 PM Mar 2016

I had a meltdown and disappeared for 8 months...

My last posts were posted in anger and despair, and I was embarrassed to return after my outbursts. I dove into a bottle as I was watching my sister die (she passed in December). At the time, I was a member of MIRT and probably broke every MIRT rule during my meltdown. May I ask for forgiveness for my transgressions? I've been here for 14 years this month. I really miss you all.

Warm regards.
Cooley.

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I had a meltdown and disappeared for 8 months... (Original Post) Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 OP
I am so sorry about your sister. hrmjustin Mar 2016 #1
Thank you Justin!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #2
Missed you! hrmjustin Mar 2016 #3
I missed you, and this site! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #5
We all have bad moments. Lord knows I had my own meltdown here. hrmjustin Mar 2016 #7
so sorry about your sister steve2470 Mar 2016 #4
Thank you Steve!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #6
welcome. I am sorry for your despair. sometimes life is cruel. I wish you well. roguevalley Mar 2016 #48
Welcome home, my dear Cooley Hurd... CaliforniaPeggy Mar 2016 #8
Thank you Peggy!!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #12
I recall my latest meltdown angstlessk Mar 2016 #9
It does, angstlessk! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #14
I recall after 9/11 seeing men who looked Arab looking at me angstlessk Mar 2016 #18
Condolecences for your sister...may she rest in peace. jaysunb Mar 2016 #10
..and I've missed you and everyone here! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #15
I had one on-line as well. it happens - some people forgave me, some did not. hollysmom Mar 2016 #11
I'm avoiding the fuel that started the fire... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #19
you can do it, people should never expect others to be perfect. hollysmom Mar 2016 #21
WELCOME BACK COOLEY HURD Skittles Mar 2016 #13
Oh, dear Skittles!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #16
we'll take it from here my friend! Skittles Mar 2016 #27
So sorry to hear about your sister... Tom_Foolery Mar 2016 #17
Thank you Tom! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #20
You are very welcome... Tom_Foolery Mar 2016 #23
Welcome back! Rhiannon12866 Mar 2016 #22
I really love you!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #25
The loss of your sister saddens me. Ptah Mar 2016 #24
Thank you, my old friend Ptah! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #26
Glad to see you back, and I'm very sorry to hear about your sister... petronius Mar 2016 #28
Thank you petronius!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #29
Sh*t happens.... so sorry it happened to you. alittlelark Mar 2016 #30
It's awesome to be back lark! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #32
Welcome back. nt awoke_in_2003 Mar 2016 #31
Thank you awoke! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #34
Welcome back discntnt_irny_srcsm Mar 2016 #33
I have SOOO missed DU, my firend! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #35
You're here now - get used to settling into that familiar couch dent... discntnt_irny_srcsm Mar 2016 #36
My deepest condolences Cooley on your sisters passing riderinthestorm Mar 2016 #37
I'd been pretty steely, all the time I'd been on DU... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #44
Welcome back Cooley. sheshe2 Mar 2016 #38
Thank you sheshe2! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #45
Backatcha. nt sheshe2 Mar 2016 #58
Welcome back, Cooley Hurd ailsagirl Mar 2016 #39
I've missed DU so much, ailsagirl! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #47
Hear, hear!! ailsagirl Mar 2016 #75
From somebody that had two locked as META yesterday.... Omaha Steve Mar 2016 #40
Steve! Yes, I've been there! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #49
Sometimes you have to go a little crazy to avoid a lotta crazy. Half-Century Man Mar 2016 #41
I spent too much time in a bottle, but I crawled out of it! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #50
Climate change. Half-Century Man Mar 2016 #51
Antonio Porchia: "The confession of one humbles all"....... Welcome back. nt Snotcicles Mar 2016 #42
That was the hurdle... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #52
I don't know you but fun n serious Mar 2016 #43
If you're an unrepentant Liberal/Socialist... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #53
I haven't embraced the socialist part fun n serious Mar 2016 #56
No one knows.. Else You Are Mad Mar 2016 #46
Thank you Else. A surreal thing for sure... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #54
My only advice is to.. Else You Are Mad Mar 2016 #59
Sorry about all you've been through. Welcome back, Cooley! n/t pnwmom Mar 2016 #55
So good to be welcomed back, pwnmom!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #57
Of course you're welcomed back. pnwmom Mar 2016 #62
I am very sorry about your sister Cooley. Loki Mar 2016 #60
We sure do, Loki, but the Repigs are doing our work for us... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #64
Welcome back, Cooley. Duval Mar 2016 #61
Thank you, Duval! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #66
Very sorry about your sister! Please stop in at the Bereavement group if you need to talk. GreenPartyVoter Mar 2016 #63
Thank you GPV! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #67
I would only be mad @ you if you didn't come back Botany Mar 2016 #65
Hahaha!!!Damn, my old friend Botany!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #69
Sorry for your loss. SamKnause Mar 2016 #68
Thank you Sam! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #72
Welcome back... SoapBox Mar 2016 #70
2015 has been a trainwreck Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #73
Welcome back! AwakeAtLast Mar 2016 #71
Good to be back, my old friend!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #74
And 'Cuse is going to the 8's! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #76
Don't worry about it Renew Deal Mar 2016 #77
Great to be back Renew!!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #78
so sorry about your sister, Kali Mar 2016 #79
My old friend Kali! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #80
It happens. I'm sure you're still "good people". I'm sorry about your sister Iris Mar 2016 #81
I'm amongst good people, Iris! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #85
Welcome back :) JesterCS Mar 2016 #82
Thank you Jester! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #86
Welcome back! Heidi Mar 2016 #83
Thank you Heidi! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #87
So that's what it was... 2naSalit Mar 2016 #84
It's good to be back 2na!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #88
Eh, who are we to judge? Phentex Mar 2016 #89
Thank you, Phentex!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #90
My deepest condolences on your loss. greatauntoftriplets Mar 2016 #91
Thank you GAOT!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #92
Welcome back, Cooley Hurd. femmocrat Mar 2016 #93
It's great to be back, femmocrat Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #94
Good to see you Cooley! redwitch Mar 2016 #95
Thank you redwitch!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #96
Proof positive that you are human. Welcome back Cooley Hurd. I am terribly sorry auntAgonist Mar 2016 #97
DU's been my home-space on the intertubes since 2002... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #99
Hugs shenmue Mar 2016 #98
Thank you shenmue!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #100
Welcome back, C H. intheflow Mar 2016 #101
Hi intheflow! The greatest thing about this anti-GBCW thread... Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #104
Its good that you are back etherealtruth Mar 2016 #102
Thank you etherealtruth! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #105
Hey you, babylonsister Mar 2016 #103
Hey YOU! One of my oldest DU pals!!!! Cooley Hurd Mar 2016 #106

CaliforniaPeggy

(149,308 posts)
8. Welcome home, my dear Cooley Hurd...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:38 PM
Mar 2016

I am so sorry about your sister...

Awful things happen and we cannot help it.

It is really good to have you return!

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
12. Thank you Peggy!!!!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:45 PM
Mar 2016

I've been self-muted here since before the whole Trump thing. I cannot remain silent when we're on the cusp of a VERY dangerous time.

IMO, Trump makes Bush/Cheney look like pikers!!!

angstlessk

(11,862 posts)
9. I recall my latest meltdown
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:40 PM
Mar 2016

I parked myself in front of the mental hospital....and watched men who seemed to approach my car...I drove away so fast, I probably burned rubber!

After I got my thoughts back together, I was only glad they were not in front of my car!

I am not sure how some people keep it all together their whole lives and some of us fall apart?

Maybe just 'shit happens'?

angstlessk

(11,862 posts)
18. I recall after 9/11 seeing men who looked Arab looking at me
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:51 PM
Mar 2016

and thinking they wanted to kill me...it was just a brief period after 9/11, but it really showed how fragile my mental state remained.

jaysunb

(11,856 posts)
10. Condolecences for your sister...may she rest in peace.
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:42 PM
Mar 2016

and you, my friend, welcome back to the asylum that is DU. You have been missed and our arms surround you.

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
15. ..and I've missed you and everyone here!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:48 PM
Mar 2016

It took a time for me to overcome my embarrassment. But I miss everyone so much!!!

hollysmom

(5,946 posts)
11. I had one on-line as well. it happens - some people forgave me, some did not.
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:45 PM
Mar 2016

I guess I was lucky because before I quit that board I deleted every one of my posts, so it was limited to the 10 people on the small board at that time. Some people remember, but there is not any proof, ha ha .

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
19. I'm avoiding the fuel that started the fire...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:51 PM
Mar 2016

I pickled myself, but that's never a good solution.

Skittles

(152,967 posts)
13. WELCOME BACK COOLEY HURD
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:45 PM
Mar 2016

I am so very sorry about your sister

you've never done me wrong and we are here for you

Rhiannon12866

(203,041 posts)
22. Welcome back!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 08:53 PM
Mar 2016

And you've certainly chosen the right forum! It's the safest (and probably the only sane) place on DU these days...

discntnt_irny_srcsm

(18,470 posts)
33. Welcome back
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 09:32 PM
Mar 2016

I'm sorry for your loss

Forgiveness generally blesses the forgiver more than the forgiven.
Good to see you back.

discntnt_irny_srcsm

(18,470 posts)
36. You're here now - get used to settling into that familiar couch dent...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 09:39 PM
Mar 2016

...I stay away from GD: Primaries but the explosions and fireworks can be entertaining.

 

riderinthestorm

(23,272 posts)
37. My deepest condolences Cooley on your sisters passing
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 09:42 PM
Mar 2016

honestly, I'd say we'd all be better off taking a break from DU every so often.

Remind us of what's real in the world.

Welcome back!



 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
44. I'd been pretty steely, all the time I'd been on DU...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 10:46 PM
Mar 2016

...but this summer seemed to be a "perfect storm". I lost it, and I'm ashamed. I want to be back into my favorite website. I realized it was time to be humble and beg forgiveness. I've missed DU. Thank you !

sheshe2

(83,356 posts)
38. Welcome back Cooley.
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 09:47 PM
Mar 2016

I understand your pain and grief. I went through it just over a year ago. Two in two weeks of each other. I did not have a melt down, yet I felt hollow for a very long time.

May your sister rest in peace, Cooley.

Best to you and yours~

ailsagirl

(22,842 posts)
39. Welcome back, Cooley Hurd
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 09:55 PM
Mar 2016

I'm so sorry to hear about your sister-- that''s a tough one

But glad you're back!

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
49. Steve! Yes, I've been there!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 10:51 PM
Mar 2016

Thank you, and it's GREAT to be back in the fold, so to speak my friend!!

Half-Century Man

(5,279 posts)
41. Sometimes you have to go a little crazy to avoid a lotta crazy.
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 10:22 PM
Mar 2016

I've had to burn off anger/frustration and wait for the ashes to go cold myself.

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
50. I spent too much time in a bottle, but I crawled out of it!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 10:53 PM
Mar 2016

The air smells funny out here, HCM! Thank you!

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
52. That was the hurdle...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 10:56 PM
Mar 2016

I felt like I'd embarrassed myself, and brought my friends in MIRT down with me. I beg their forgiveness as well. Thank you Snotcicles, another dear old friend!

Else You Are Mad

(3,040 posts)
46. No one knows..
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 10:47 PM
Mar 2016

What such pain would drive one to do. I hope all is well, I understand what going through such is like.

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
54. Thank you Else. A surreal thing for sure...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 11:01 PM
Mar 2016

So much happened this summer. A time of growth, and a time of worry. Then, around Christmas time, massive change. It was crushing, but, to quote Elton John:


Loki

(3,825 posts)
60. I am very sorry about your sister Cooley.
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 11:23 PM
Mar 2016

But thankful that you found your way back. I'm a long timer too, and DU can be a wonderfully supportive place, but it can also become toxic and unhealthy. Take care of yourself. We've got work to do.

Botany

(70,294 posts)
65. I would only be mad @ you if you didn't come back
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 11:29 PM
Mar 2016

Hell, @ one time I was banned from both the Hillary and Bernie groups.

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
69. Hahaha!!!Damn, my old friend Botany!!!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 11:32 PM
Mar 2016

I was banned from the Clarkie group in 2004! I was a Deaniac back then!!

SoapBox

(18,791 posts)
70. Welcome back...
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 11:32 PM
Mar 2016

And I am sorry to hear about your sister.

2015 turned out to be a bad year...my wonderful Mom at 93 passed in January and then in December, my partner of 32 years, was diagnosed with cancer.

Keep ones "sanity" was a challenge.

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
76. And 'Cuse is going to the 8's!
Fri Mar 25, 2016, 11:55 PM
Mar 2016


I've reconciled w/ my favorite website, AND SU won! I'm in rapture!

This has been a good night! I love you all!!
 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
80. My old friend Kali!
Sat Mar 26, 2016, 12:17 AM
Mar 2016
Yes. I didn't want to do a reverse GBCW in GD The lounge is a more appropriate place to slink back in.

JesterCS

(1,827 posts)
82. Welcome back :)
Sat Mar 26, 2016, 02:05 AM
Mar 2016

Don't know you, but welcome back regardless. And condolences. I don't handle death well myself, so I understand.

femmocrat

(28,394 posts)
93. Welcome back, Cooley Hurd.
Sat Mar 26, 2016, 11:23 AM
Mar 2016

Good to see you again. I was just thinking about your avatar and trying to remember who used it, and here you are! Ha!

My deepest sympathy on the loss of your sister.



auntAgonist

(17,252 posts)
97. Proof positive that you are human. Welcome back Cooley Hurd. I am terribly sorry
Sat Mar 26, 2016, 12:11 PM
Mar 2016

to hear of your sister's passing.

We all grieve in different ways and if affects our interaction with other people profoundly.

I'm glad you've chosen to return to the folks you count as friends.



aA

intheflow

(28,408 posts)
101. Welcome back, C H.
Sat Mar 26, 2016, 02:57 PM
Mar 2016

I'm so sorry about your sister.

I've also had a meltdown during my time on DU, starting when I was on a Mod team many years ago. Maybe coincidence, maybe not.

I'm glad you're out of the bottle again.

 

Cooley Hurd

(26,877 posts)
104. Hi intheflow! The greatest thing about this anti-GBCW thread...
Sat Mar 26, 2016, 09:08 PM
Mar 2016

...is that so many of my old friends are showing up! We're still standing!

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