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Related: Culture Forums, Support ForumsI had a meltdown and disappeared for 8 months...
My last posts were posted in anger and despair, and I was embarrassed to return after my outbursts. I dove into a bottle as I was watching my sister die (she passed in December). At the time, I was a member of MIRT and probably broke every MIRT rule during my meltdown. May I ask for forgiveness for my transgressions? I've been here for 14 years this month. I really miss you all.
Warm regards.
Cooley.
hrmjustin
(71,265 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)One of my old freinds!
hrmjustin
(71,265 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)hrmjustin
(71,265 posts)Glad you are back.
steve2470
(37,457 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)You're another old friend!
roguevalley
(40,656 posts)CaliforniaPeggy
(149,308 posts)I am so sorry about your sister...
Awful things happen and we cannot help it.
It is really good to have you return!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I've been self-muted here since before the whole Trump thing. I cannot remain silent when we're on the cusp of a VERY dangerous time.
IMO, Trump makes Bush/Cheney look like pikers!!!
angstlessk
(11,862 posts)I parked myself in front of the mental hospital....and watched men who seemed to approach my car...I drove away so fast, I probably burned rubber!
After I got my thoughts back together, I was only glad they were not in front of my car!
I am not sure how some people keep it all together their whole lives and some of us fall apart?
Maybe just 'shit happens'?
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Quickly, so very quickly.
angstlessk
(11,862 posts)and thinking they wanted to kill me...it was just a brief period after 9/11, but it really showed how fragile my mental state remained.
jaysunb
(11,856 posts)and you, my friend, welcome back to the asylum that is DU. You have been missed and our arms surround you.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)It took a time for me to overcome my embarrassment. But I miss everyone so much!!!
hollysmom
(5,946 posts)I guess I was lucky because before I quit that board I deleted every one of my posts, so it was limited to the 10 people on the small board at that time. Some people remember, but there is not any proof, ha ha .
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I pickled myself, but that's never a good solution.
hollysmom
(5,946 posts)the downfall of Ted Cruz, ha ha
Skittles
(152,967 posts)I am so very sorry about your sister
you've never done me wrong and we are here for you
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I need a serious ass-kicking from you, my old friend!!!
Skittles
(152,967 posts)good to see you!
Tom_Foolery
(4,688 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Tom_Foolery
(4,688 posts)It's good to have you back.
Rhiannon12866
(203,041 posts)And you've certainly chosen the right forum! It's the safest (and probably the only sane) place on DU these days...
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)...Like I have to remind you of that.
Ptah
(32,983 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)petronius
(26,581 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)alittlelark
(18,886 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)awoke_in_2003
(34,582 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)discntnt_irny_srcsm
(18,470 posts)I'm sorry for your loss
Forgiveness generally blesses the forgiver more than the forgiven.
Good to see you back.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)discntnt_irny_srcsm
(18,470 posts)...I stay away from GD: Primaries but the explosions and fireworks can be entertaining.
riderinthestorm
(23,272 posts)honestly, I'd say we'd all be better off taking a break from DU every so often.
Remind us of what's real in the world.
Welcome back!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)...but this summer seemed to be a "perfect storm". I lost it, and I'm ashamed. I want to be back into my favorite website. I realized it was time to be humble and beg forgiveness. I've missed DU. Thank you !
sheshe2
(83,356 posts)I understand your pain and grief. I went through it just over a year ago. Two in two weeks of each other. I did not have a melt down, yet I felt hollow for a very long time.
May your sister rest in peace, Cooley.
Best to you and yours~
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)sheshe2
(83,356 posts)ailsagirl
(22,842 posts)I'm so sorry to hear about your sister-- that''s a tough one
But glad you're back!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Especially since the Repigs are imploding!!
ailsagirl
(22,842 posts)Omaha Steve
(99,079 posts)Welcome home to the fatted calf!
OS
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Thank you, and it's GREAT to be back in the fold, so to speak my friend!!
Half-Century Man
(5,279 posts)I've had to burn off anger/frustration and wait for the ashes to go cold myself.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)The air smells funny out here, HCM! Thank you!
Half-Century Man
(5,279 posts)And the reek of Reaganism.
Snotcicles
(9,089 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I felt like I'd embarrassed myself, and brought my friends in MIRT down with me. I beg their forgiveness as well. Thank you Snotcicles, another dear old friend!
fun n serious
(4,451 posts)meltdown is my middle name so I am sure we would get along great.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)You're my new best friend, fun!
fun n serious
(4,451 posts)But I am not a hater. We'll get along anyway.
Else You Are Mad
(3,040 posts)What such pain would drive one to do. I hope all is well, I understand what going through such is like.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)So much happened this summer. A time of growth, and a time of worry. Then, around Christmas time, massive change. It was crushing, but, to quote Elton John:
Else You Are Mad
(3,040 posts)Rage, cry, remember then live.
pnwmom
(108,925 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)pnwmom
(108,925 posts)Loki
(3,825 posts)But thankful that you found your way back. I'm a long timer too, and DU can be a wonderfully supportive place, but it can also become toxic and unhealthy. Take care of yourself. We've got work to do.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Duval
(4,280 posts)So sorry about your sister. I offer my sincere condolences.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)GreenPartyVoter
(72,377 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I might have to.
Botany
(70,294 posts)Hell, @ one time I was banned from both the Hillary and Bernie groups.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I was banned from the Clarkie group in 2004! I was a Deaniac back then!!
SamKnause
(13,043 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)SoapBox
(18,791 posts)And I am sorry to hear about your sister.
2015 turned out to be a bad year...my wonderful Mom at 93 passed in January and then in December, my partner of 32 years, was diagnosed with cancer.
Keep ones "sanity" was a challenge.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Thank you SoapBox!!
AwakeAtLast
(14,112 posts)You have been missed, I always liked your posts!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I've reconciled w/ my favorite website, AND SU won! I'm in rapture!
This has been a good night! I love you all!!
Renew Deal
(81,803 posts)I doubt anyone remembered anyway. Welcome back.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Kali
(54,990 posts)but welcome back to the fold - Lounge is the best spot on DU for sure.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Iris
(15,632 posts)Welcome back!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Thank you!!
JesterCS
(1,827 posts)Don't know you, but welcome back regardless. And condolences. I don't handle death well myself, so I understand.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Heidi
(58,237 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)2naSalit
(86,073 posts)welcome back, take a deep breath and carry on.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Phentex
(16,330 posts)So sorry to hear about your sister. That hurts.
You are always welcome here.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)greatauntoftriplets
(175,699 posts)Welcome back.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)My old friend!!!
femmocrat
(28,394 posts)Good to see you again. I was just thinking about your avatar and trying to remember who used it, and here you are! Ha!
My deepest sympathy on the loss of your sister.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)redwitch
(14,933 posts)Welcome back!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)auntAgonist
(17,252 posts)to hear of your sister's passing.
We all grieve in different ways and if affects our interaction with other people profoundly.
I'm glad you've chosen to return to the folks you count as friends.
aA
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)...and I missed it.
shenmue
(38,503 posts)Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)intheflow
(28,408 posts)I'm so sorry about your sister.
I've also had a meltdown during my time on DU, starting when I was on a Mod team many years ago. Maybe coincidence, maybe not.
I'm glad you're out of the bottle again.
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)...is that so many of my old friends are showing up! We're still standing!
etherealtruth
(22,165 posts)Meltdowns are part of the human condition.
So sorry to hear about your sister
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)Redemption is such a great thing, and I've loved this site for so long!!!!
babylonsister
(170,964 posts)so glad to see you back and so sorry to read about your sister. You have been missed!
Cooley Hurd
(26,877 posts)I guess, at least, I'm not on the In Memoriam page.