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Tue Oct 4, 2016, 03:48 PM

On Trump, PTSD, and being a Coward.

I wrote this in 2005. I am including both the link to the original article and the article itself.


June 8 2005

A question was recently posed asking at what point do American soldiers in Iraq and Afghanistan cross the line and go "from duty to brutality."

It's an excellent question and one that needs to be asked. More importantly, it needs to be answered. Yet Americans can't look to the office of the president for the answer, because the president is too busy denying that there is a problem. The president believes that reports of torture and abuse are "absurd" and that a "few bad apples" are to blame.

What he ignores are the horrors of war for both the civilian and the soldier. What he ignores are the crimes being perpetuated in every American's name. What he ignores is the damage caused by his personal quest for glory and a place in history.

George Bush's illegal war has brought not just death, but with his lies and denials, George Bush has given America yet another dark stain on her short history as a nation - the consequences of which have yet to be fully realized. George Bush will tell you he is keeping America safe. I will tell you that he is bringing death and destruction to all involved that will be felt for years to come.

While Bush is busy ignoring and denying war crimes - and not because such things speak ill of America, but because of his own involvement in those crimes - American troops have been learning, first-hand, what causes a soldier to cross the line between doing their duty and becoming a war criminal.

But I can't live in George Bush's denial. I can't embrace his lies. You see, my husband is a soldier. He spent a year in Iraq.

The question of soldiers crossing the line and becoming war criminals comes up a lot in our home. We talk about this all the time. My husband was lucky - not just because he survived, though I'm not discounting that in the least, but because when he saw other soldiers crossing that line, he told his command. He kept his humanity.

My husband has never killed anyone. Odd statement that. It's not a brag, it's a sigh of relief. I'm not sure how to help others feel the emotion those words can bring. "He never killed anyone." It's like missing the collision but still being on the highway driving at top speed with no brakes. Every close call is punctuated by "this time."

So we talk.

"Why do some soldiers cross the line?"

Because some soldiers are already crazy, and some soldiers go crazy during war. Because some soldiers just don't care and they buy the lies and the hate, and because some soldiers just go along with the crowd. Some soldiers are just so scared, they don't think.

"But when it comes to war, you aren't trained to think, you're trained to react."

That's not true. The catch is, if you react without thinking you'll endanger everyone (civilian and soldier alike). Those are the worst soldiers - the ones who do not think. They might survive the war but they'll lose the battle - they have become damaged humans.

"What makes the difference?"

The character you carry within you. That moment of choice - and you choose the right path. You never know really. Different things for different people keep them from crossing the line. Some would never think to cross it and some have to fight that struggle each and every moment. Some are just lucky.

"And you?"

I don't know. Some things just never cross your mind. I didn't think of why I didn't do something, I just didn't do it.

"And what is your lasting memory of Iraq?"

The little girl.

The little girl had leprosy. He met her early on. Her disease was so advanced she was dying from non-treatment. In her entire short life, she got next to no treatment. My husband carried her dying body, along with her mother and father, through three cities seeking help for her. He couldn't find it. Iraqi doctors too scared or wanting money (to survive with) and American medics not concerned.

He finally reached into his wallet, took out all his cash, then gave it to an Iraqi doctor. The doctor helped the child die comfortably because that's all they could do for her by then.

That's what my husband brought home. That's what he remembers most about Iraq.

He still twitches in his sleep. He still cringes when we drive near a bridge. Narrow roads make him jumpy - but all that's gotten better over time. It used to be way worse. It's the little 7-year-old girl that will haunt him forever.

What makes a soldier cross that line?

I don't know but some do, and they have gone to a place inside themselves I can't begin to understand. But it's the ones that don't cross that line that live with heartaches that I'll never be able to imagine, and they are the ones you and I will never hear about. Their pain doesn't make the news.

Those soldiers come home from George Bush's illegal war, to the lies and the cover-ups and the denials, and will be forgotten and overlooked because our president doesn't just ignore the "bad apples" and deny the torture, he ignores and denies all of the troops.



October 4, 2016


I wished it took a special kind of callous indifference to the pain and suffering caused by war (as displayed by Trump), but it has been my experience that far too many people willingly embrace any excuse to forget or downplay the horrors that war can bring. Both during and after, the toll on the human body, both mentally and physically - crippled by the unrelenting fear and terror, the anguish that stays with you, and a sorrow so deep a person never really feels whole again - can't be bargained away by treaty or set right by diplomacy.

For those who have suffered the cruelties of war, the end is seldom the end.

You carry it with you always.

A very human reaction to the inhumanity of war is something Trump will never understand. He can't.

To do so would require him to tear down the braggadocian facade he hides behind and admit he's afraid. Make no mistake, Trump is afraid. Everything and everyone he attacks is a source of nightmares for Trump. Persons of color and women cause him to feel great fear. For anyone to even question that he might not do everything (or anything) particularly well is seen as an attack against his character and his abilities. And like any all-too-typical coward, he's a bully who hopes his bravado will disguise his weaknesses.

It doesn't. It never will.




My husband still dreams of that little girl. He always will.


Thank you,

Solly Mack
















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malaise Oct 2016 #3
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #4
malaise Oct 2016 #9
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #10
malaise Oct 2016 #11
TexasProgresive Oct 2016 #12
malaise Oct 2016 #13
TexasProgresive Oct 2016 #14
canetoad Oct 2016 #5
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #7
gratuitous Oct 2016 #6
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #8
smirkymonkey Oct 2016 #15
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #20
JohnnyLib2 Oct 2016 #16
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #17
madokie Oct 2016 #18
Solly Mack Oct 2016 #19

Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 03:53 PM

1. K&R

Thank you.

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Response to gademocrat7 (Reply #1)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:25 PM

2. Thank you, gademocrat7.

You're welcome.

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Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:26 PM

3. Excellent post

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Response to malaise (Reply #3)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:27 PM

4. Thank you, malaise.

Staying dry?

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Response to Solly Mack (Reply #4)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:47 PM

9. Yet again

Jamaica escapes - our shape and location help - Ivan and now Matthew.

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Response to malaise (Reply #9)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:54 PM

10. Not even rain? Jackpot!

I'm glad though. Matthew looks scary.

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Response to Solly Mack (Reply #10)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:56 PM

11. Heavy rain on the coast

nothing like we anticipated - he still looks scary.

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Response to malaise (Reply #9)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:58 PM

12. The chicken was right!!!!

For those who don't know what this is about, ask malaise.

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Response to TexasProgresive (Reply #12)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 05:02 PM

13. Hehehehehhe

Been laughing at that with friends all day. The fisherman knows his 'chicken'.

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Response to malaise (Reply #13)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 05:12 PM

14. Go to see you're in high humor!

I'm so sorry, I seem to be stuck
Maybe that cleared it out of my head.

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Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:36 PM

5. Great post K&R

And please give your husband a big hug from me, for being such a decent and good man.

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Response to canetoad (Reply #5)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:47 PM

7. I will.

Thank you.

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Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:44 PM

6. That's why going to war should be a sober undertaking

We're committing people on both sides to a hellish experience, and there'd better be a good reason for it. For the record, "They tried to kill my daddy" and so that someone can say, "I'm a war president" are not good reasons. This callous, flippant attitude toward going to war, or bombing the shit out of them, or whatever other tough guy braggadocio is used to justify it, makes me almost madder than the actual going to war.

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Response to gratuitous (Reply #6)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 04:47 PM

8. Well said.

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Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 06:21 PM

15. K&R

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Response to smirkymonkey (Reply #15)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 11:58 PM

20. Thank you.

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Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 06:39 PM

16. As a counselor to active and retired combat vets--


your husband's story is all too familiar and your points are dead on. Thank you. And Trump is a hopeless, callous fool.

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Response to JohnnyLib2 (Reply #16)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 10:03 PM

17. Thank you for what you do.

He really is a fool.

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Response to Solly Mack (Original post)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 10:14 PM

18. Being one of those weak ones

who came home with a tortured mind I can't even begin to write what I'd like to say.

You pretty much said it all for all of us.

For that I thank you and tell your husband that in time it does get better, if better is the right word that is

Peace to you and yours

May you two find it one day

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Response to madokie (Reply #18)

Tue Oct 4, 2016, 10:18 PM

19. (((madokie)))

Thank you.

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